fantasy~reality

2006-06-05T20:02:00.000+08:00

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2006-04-15T08:41:00.000+08:00

who says i'm gonna abandon this blog! tada~!
cant u see i'm back..

crappy..
=)

2006-03-26T02:44:00.000+08:00

我要快乐
歌手：张惠妹专辑：我要快乐

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的
把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
我的决定是对的

2006-03-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

(edited)

fruitful day i guess..

enjoyed myself alot

gonna continue with tt tml

i dunno wad's my plan for tml but i guess i'll do my very best to make my day a fruitful day as well

latest update

probably meetin wen tml..
but i gonna reach there early myself
=(

2006-03-24T14:28:00.000+08:00

everything starts now.. this very moment..

no more regrets

just move on

2006-03-23T15:17:00.000+08:00

i'm diasppointed when i got back my gp common test paper 2 -- compre paper

the papaer was upon 50 marks n guess what..
i only got 22 marks..

content wise, i scored badly..
real badly ... only 11 out of 35 marks..
how bad can it be..

for language wise, i got 11 out of 15..
vanessa commented that my language was good..
but i doubt so..

if my langauge is good.. y my content only 11 marks?
and ya..
i dun understand those passages ..

what really sets me thinkin was mr shankar's comments beside the marks

" stephanie, u are capable of so much better if u put your heart in it.."

u know why it hits me?

tt's bcos i finished the entire paper way before the one and a half hour..
n i gave up completing the AQ as well as some questions and i left few blanks here and there..

i'm not comfident in my english langauge..
sometimes i feel tt i'm lousy in english.. judgin from the results i get..

sometimes.. i feel that..
" heh.. my english nt bad ne! "

weird..

i dunno what to do abt my gp anyway and i hate maths these days.. totally dun get it!!!

hell!!

2006-03-19T04:30:00.000+08:00

there's this particular person in msn who's soo irritating..

every time we chat.. this person would always bring up this topic..

totally disgusted by his stupid behaviour..

gonna delete him from my msn account..under " unknown aliens" argh!

2006-03-19T03:17:00.000+08:00

pls take a look at the time of this post ...
3 16 am in the mornin...

n what am i doin here ?

slackin??
nah..

takin a rest after cheongin my econs hw for lik 3 freakin hours..

haiz..

went for class 2f bbq yesterday..

to tell e truth..my mind was somewhere else..

my whole stack of unfinished homework..

ya..n i didnt really enjoy myself VERY much..except for a few moments such as goin up to ryan's house to watch tv eat and chat with ryan's sis..
ya tt was fun.. n she's one nice person to chat with... =)

n by the time i reach home it was roughly 11 45 pm..
nearly midnight ..

the first thing i did was to change n have a wash up.. before headin back into my bedroom n started readin the econs notes.. before attempting the essays..

ya.. by this time.. amazingly, i'm still not tired..

but i gonna hit the sheets soon for i have to wake up at 8 am n prepare myself to meet up with yiyan n dionne in juro east for mac breakfast b4 headin to the library to cheong all our unfinished homework..

hmm.. wonder if we can still make it in time ...

dionne said tt she's not goin home until she finishes all her hw..

hmm.. ya.. think i have to do tt too..

here's a recap of all my holiday homework

- maths tutorial 16.4 + assignment
- maths test corrections
- econs essays.. 2 essays qn( 4 parts = 4 essays )
- econs drq
- chinese lit hw
- chinese "zhou ji"
- geog essay (but the question wasnt even given.. how to do sia!)
- chinese exercise.. (supposed to be handed in last monday.. but forget abt it le..)

but...
i only completed 3 essays parts for econs..
so u see.. tml gonna be a LONG day..
i'm fully prepared for ir..

who says jc students are very free?
if u say so.. come try it urself !

wa.. u see...
alot right
all essays.. n all of them requires me to write non- stop!
argh
ya..
my hands would probably be achin after completin these hw..

n one more thing.. i had to postpone this secret mission with a bast friend of mine.. postponed to monday..
wa.. see i'm gettin so busy..
gonna manage my time well..

main point :
next time.. i'll seriously consider before goin to such sessions..it's kind of borin when u know tt the class isnt least united..
i'm not goin to get psyco-ed into this anymore..
i' no longer have the time to enjoy le..besides all the muggin..
ya.. so.. u know what i mean right ?

2006-03-18T15:19:00.000+08:00

i was soo shocked when dionne told me tt a creative ear piece cos like $18 (if i remember correctly) la!

u know what???

i bought a ear piece from creative for a FREAKIN $ 45 BUCKS la!!!

i could feel my heart breakin into pieces le la...
i could have bought 2 ear piece for e price i paid...

okie..

creative warehouse sales has started...ya.. without me knowin...
=( boohoo...

2006-03-17T23:17:00.001+08:00

after few months of slackin..

i'm gonna slap my own face..and tell myself..

heh u gonna study if not u'll REGRET!

2006-03-17T23:17:00.000+08:00

after few months of slackin..

i'm gonna slap my own face..and tell myself..

heh u gonna study if not u'll REGRET!

2006-03-16T21:43:00.000+08:00

it's hard to find someone who wanna be with u when u r sick, healthy, depressed or wanna cry, when u r on a deserted island, and without makeups."

2006-03-16T18:14:00.000+08:00

feelin down..

e reason is simple..
i dropped my hp on the ground!
argh..

feelin rather down now..

sobs.. my hp! ah! hope it will be fine..
hope nothin happens.. hope nothin goes wrong..

sadness..
depressed..

2006-03-16T09:31:00.000+08:00

it makes people wonder how can someone who is obviously soo fake acts as if wow we are close friends...

it is non of my business anyway..
but i really hate to see such hypocrites acting n putting on such a false front..

ya.. i know i'm bitchin abt things now..

really cant stand their actions...
for bein such a hypocrite..

we all knew abt it in our hearts all along..
but we pretended tt "o.. let it be the wayt it is"

n " it's really non of our business anyway"

but..
these days..

when i came across blogs..
n everytime when i saw the "same few" topics mentions..

it makes me so flared up..

ya..
for no reason..

actually there's a reason..

nah..
not goin to mention here anyway...
wont wanna have any thing related to tt anyway..

it's non of my business n i'm not goin to poke my nose into others' business..

ya.. n let e person do whatever they wan..

2006-03-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

tired..

from sch, shoppin n everythin

2006-03-14T07:35:00.000+08:00

mornin!
=)

i didnt really have a nice long sleep yesterday..

woke up in e middle of e night..
n continued sleepin..
n i woke up at 7 am sharp!

hmm... this routine must be fixed.. if nt i wont wake up so early this holiday!!!

well geog lessons starts at 12 noon.. 2 long hrs.. hmm

haiz..

nvm...

2006-03-13T14:27:00.000+08:00

life gets really borin when i find myself studyin n everythin i do is all abt studyin..

ya.. after e trip to ntu today..
i feel motivated.. gettin into a uni is a MUST n in order to do it..
studyin is required..

tml gonna go to sch for geog lessons...
=(
so sianz..
gonna go for my acupunture session for my ankle tml..
how borin can it gets??

anyone free to acc me there?

2006-03-12T19:02:00.000+08:00

loving u

Loving you
Is easy because you're beautiful....
Making love with you
Is all I want to do....
Loving you
Is more than just a dream come true....
And everything that I do
Is out of loving you....

No one else can make me feel
The colors that you bring....
Stay with me while we grow old....
And we will live each day in spring time....

Because loving you....
Has made my life so beautiful....
And every day of my life
Is filled with loving you....
Loving you....
I see your soul come shining through....
And everytime that we....
Oh I'm more in love with you....

2006-03-10T19:04:00.000+08:00

ohoo!

march holidays finally here..!!
ya..time to party.. =)

hee.. nah.. can only party for abt few days only..
common test starts soon.. gonna start muggin..

n i got back my econs case study.. this time.. there's only 5 passes n i'm one of them!
this is a BOOST to my confidence man..
i'm really disappointed in my previous econs essay result..

but this time round.. i gained confidence tt i can make it for my econs!!

ha.. this week has been a TIRING week for me.. i kept doin homework.. muggin for my chinese lit test.. which im quite sure tt i will fail..

ya..
tt's tt..

n tml i'll be goin out! yeah!
so look forward k?
gonna enjoy myself lik there's no tml!!

2006-03-09T18:00:00.000+08:00

ohoo!
i'm back bloggin..!
=)

aint supposed to blog today.. but i'm in a great mood..

i finally went swimmin with my friends .. dionne, karen, yiyan, n jiayi @ JE swimming complex!
HA.. reason: i FINALLY bought my swimmin costume! '
cool! after lik sooo long.. hmm.. since last year..
ha..
it has been lik 3 - 4 years ever since i went there to play..
zzz.. acted lik some swa-ku lik tt..
n ya.. we had a chat abt tt particular issue tt has been changin the atmosphere ard..
it takes 2 hands to clap..
if both sides do some changes.. there's probably hope..
=)
hope things may change but in this current situation.. probably not yet..

ha..n ya!
thanks to my friends who held my hands.. ya.. i was abit scared.. lik long time never touch water..
e last time i went swimmin was lik last year or last last year? year end of last last year?? i think.. hmm.. ya condo swimmin pool..

LOL
ha..
ya.. jassie: sorry tt i cant meet u up today..
i really have ALoT of stuffs to be completed by today..
ya..really tired these days.. ALL BCOS OF MY STOMACH ACHE at THE ADOMEN area..

i've been takin taxi 4 days in a row.. nah..except for yesterday..
=)
wasted some money .. n i took taxi bcos i SERIOUSLY need to go to e TOILET..
urgent..
=P
hee.. ya.. tts all for today... gonna go bathe n watch tv for a while b4 headin to do my GP essay as well as my chinese hw maths hw..
ah..
too little time.. too many things to do...

2006-03-05T23:27:00.000+08:00

sch starts tml AGAIN !

2006-02-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

You scored as Anthropology. You should be an Anthropology major!

Anthropology

75%

Linguistics

58%

Philosophy

58%

Theater

50%

Mathematics

50%

English

50%

Journalism

50%

Engineering

50%

Sociology

50%

Dance

42%

Psychology

42%

Art

42%

Biology

42%

Chemistry

25%

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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2006-02-28T15:27:00.000+08:00

heh..i'm back!

ok.. main point..

tml the day where most of us gets our A level results.. will be gettin my chinese ao results tml..

argh.. n we have to watch those ex J2s gets their results.. i'm scared for em as well as for myself..

i wan to see everyone smilin happily tml.. but the truth is only 50% of the pple can qualify..

ya..

off to gek poh later on to buy some things as well as for dinner..
=)

2006-02-25T16:30:00.000+08:00

started muggin for geog just now.. taking a short rest b4 goin back to mug..

here's some picture(s) taken these days.. *one photo cannot be uploaded.. sorry ...

ha.. wen, me n jiaxin..

ha.. update more later on..=)

2006-02-24T17:14:00.000+08:00

weekend update

it has been soo long (bah) ever since i updated my blog..
partially due to laziness...n nothin much to blog abt anyway..
school's a bore as everyone knows..
it doesnt make a diff whether i blog or i dont..

n i've been relyin alot on my ankle guard these days.. without it.. i feel insecured..
n whenever i walk for too long.. i can feel a short pain in my ankle.. something's wrong.. seriously wrong..bah..

sch..has been e same.. got back my test papers..
econs essay.. only 13 marks.. even though i make e mark by passing tt paper.. but MAN! it's only a borderline pass..so fuckin stupid right?

haiz..
i haven been able to sit down n start muggin.. (i mean long hours)
n i seriously had no WISH to go out on weekends le..
n talkin abt shoppin, i went o bugis yesterday with karen.., with an aim in mind -- buy a BAG..
n guess what i SAW on the MRT??

i feel so disgusted at the scene i saw.. it's utterly a DISGRACE to all females in the world..

A FEMALE ( a chinese lady ) with BLONDE HAIR tt looks disgusting n SPOTTIN a DISGUSTIN LOOKIN PLASTIC BAG n WORSE OF ALL __ HORRIBLE MAKE-UP!

this is soo horrble la.. n this lady's make up is worse than a 12 years old girl's "barbie doll" make-up..

i can SERIOUSLY say.. that is surely a FASHION DISASTER..

i'm in no position to be such a meano to criticise..
but this is not the end OF it...

this is e EXCITING part..

SHE TOOK OUT HER ROLL - ON DEORDORANT , LIFTED HER ARMS.. N APPLIED HER DEORDORANT RIGHT IN THE SMACK OF THE TRAIN..

o MY god!
utterly DISGUSTIN..
but luckily, i'm glad tt she even SHAVED her armpits..

if not.. argh..
just imagine..

bah.. just the thot of it..makes me SICK

n to my friends who misses me..

all i wanna say is.. i miss u guys too.. cant wait to meet up with u guys.. but hope tt time permits..

n to my friends takin their A level results next wednesday..
Good Luck.. dont think too much k?

ya.. nothin much to update le..

well if i have something in mind.. i'll be back anyway..

loads of love..

stephanie ..
<3

2006-02-21T21:37:00.000+08:00

out of the 4 tests i have this week..
3 was completed.. with a breeze..
well, almost..
geog test today was rather lousy ba... i wrote at an incredible speed (again) without havin any idea of what i wrote throughout tt 40 mins..
-_-"

well, next is my econs case study test.. which was of total crap to me..
i made the same mistake again..
wrote non-stop..but i had no idea what i wrote actually..

this is one mistake i make at every single tests i goes through..

ya.. enough of sch stuffs..

u know what?
i went for accupuncture today!
so scary la.. e needles n all.. it was abit pain n i was like so damn nervous abt it.. i remember cluchin at the sides of e chair..
-__-"

****

guess everyone reads e newspaper right?
one of the most talked abt issue this week is the RENU contacts solutions and the 22 cases of fungi infection..

i really pity those people la..
even though i had a BAD experience last year when i caught a somewhat similar infection on my both eyes..

n the scariest thing of all is (just imagine)

the doctor telling u that u may lose ur eyesight gradually..
so friends.. do take care when u guys uses contacts..

n DO NOT WEAR UR CONTACTS TO SLEEP..

this is a NO NO for everyone has it will increase ur chances of getting tt infection..

2006-02-18T07:32:00.000+08:00

whenever i catch a flu there will be a high possibility tt i'll sprain my ankle...

twice in a year

no more this year.. i hope

n i had a dream abt something so realistic..

hmm...

gonna start thinkin n do somethin serious abt it...

gonna see a doctor later n rest at home.. i've been resting alot this week.. minus e fact tt i'm sick..
n there's tonnes of tests next week

ya ... i know what to do..

=)

2006-02-14T17:28:00.000+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day , Everyone!

2006-02-10T19:15:00.000+08:00

weekends is finally here!! really looked forward to this day.. even though i'll be stayin home n rottin..-_-" duh..

nvm..
i'm soo tired..
i haven have time for myself n revision...
n lots of tests..n everythin..
argh..
there'll be more tests next week.. gonna be a horrible week i guess..

n u know what?
i really HATE maths to the CORE
it suxs really suxs...

ok.. stop here..
gonna have my dinner =)

2006-02-10T19:08:00.000+08:00

i miss those sec sch days all of a sudden..

i really miss my classmates..
esp ailin xueli n fatin..
we used to be e "fishcake" gang..eatin fishcake from tt particular malay stall every recess

i miss those days where we used to irritate one another n all e teasing..
i really miss those sch days..
i miss these guys...
i miss my nickname
"biotank"
- bcos of my surname n e high marks i scored for biology exams..

aw..
sooo nice...

y am i so emotional..
i was browsing thru fatin's n ailn's blog..
aw.. i miss em sooo much..
it's like soo long ever since we last went out..
i miss those pool days..
aw aw aw...

2006-02-07T17:01:00.000+08:00

haha.. to my jc friends..
well, i dont take tt teasin to heart..ha..lol..dont do tt again ne.. make me soo paiseh..haha...

back to e point..to what i wanted to blog..

i'm beginnin to understand my econs..
=)
good start

n heard tt A level results comin out soon.. well i'll be gettin my chinese ao exam results.. (bsides my friends)
nervous for myself as well as for em'

hope everythin goes well

2006-02-05T00:32:00.000+08:00

no more gambling for me
=(

yiyan hse steamboat was great
but when it comes to the gambling part.. sobs..

initially i was winnin..
but at night.. when we play 21 points with an uncle.. i lost 10 bucks..
cos he was winning like mad.. everytime so lucky..
i stopped after losing 10 bucks..sad..

n i got teased by the rest of em..they called me "da shao".. n somehow i became "da shao" after i offered to take food for him..
i was like..
tt was just a simple gesture.. i do tt to everyone..-_-"

2006-02-03T22:44:00.000+08:00

ohoo

goin yiyan hse for steamboat tml..
well.. lookin forward..
me dionne karen jiayi chenghao weizhong chunkiat helios..

ha.. not bad.. tt's quite alot of pple.. yea!

off to sleep now.. tada

2006-02-02T00:44:00.000+08:00

first of all,

sorry wen..cant acc u to town yesterday.. =(
well, i dunno when we;ll be able to meet up again.. but i hope it'll be soon..

back..
school after cny celebration was utterly boring..
i found myself laggin abit behind..
so gonna buck up..
no more goin out anymore
=(
gonna start to catch up b4 !
it's late now.. stil onlin..but nvm..
today.. i mean after today's lesson..
think ill be stayin back after sch to consult abt econs..gettin abit confused at some parts..
yups.. till den..
=)
bye..
n girls..(u noe who u are)
anythin jus sms me ..
u know my number..=)

2006-01-30T19:44:00.000+08:00

i should start studyin from tml onwards..

this is gonna be a tough week.. with all the tests comin up.. n we'll probably be gettin our results back..ah..

nervous abt my econs geo as well as chinese..

this year 2006
i found myself standin in the middle of two paths..
one is a path to a bright future
e other leads to a dead path

what is goin to change my fate ?
my self disipline

i never got into the "disipline" this month - jan
i'm pretty much shocked that one month passed so quickly n it's like a blink of an eye n b4 i knew it, cny is alread halfway through..

mr gomez told us abt what he did when he was studyin for e As
i'm shocked at the immersed effort he made to get a place in uni

i asked myself whether i'll be able to do it
like what he did in his younger days..
i doubt tt i had 100% of his discipline
but iu made sure tt i have 95% of what he had.
he never fails to motivate me..
a real life exampole of someone who changes his fate-- breakin away from e cycle of poverty..

but e prob with me is..
i dunno how to go abt studyin'?
as in..
i dunno how many hours of revision is enough...
i've never been someone who studys alot..
i go for last minute revision..
but this wont work durin e As..
i knew it too well
i dunno how should my pace be like
all i know is i need to get all my jc1 work's revision to be done by march
tt's e limit for myself

pls tell me how..
i want some "top" ex student to tell me his/her secrets to revision

2006-01-30T09:18:00.000+08:00

happy chinese new year!

enjoy=)

hope u guys like my blogskin..

2006-01-26T21:51:00.000+08:00

busy week

a summarized list of my week...

1) Change in Class Commitee

finally there's a change in e clas committee..
so it's confirmed tt i'm NO LONGER e CLASS REP of 05A08 anymore..
yea!
i wanna be free from all e duties n resposibilities this year-- a crucial year for me..
but i kind of miss doin those duties now..
-_-

2) Torturous PC lessons..

my legs are still achin... it aches when i walk, sit.. n let alone climbing of stairs...
ah...

3) Exams

i had loads of tests this week
geography, chinese lit as well as econs..
i only read thru my geog e day b4 e test
for econs n chinese lit.. it happens to fall on the same day..
i never study my chinese lit exam.. i was lik preparin my econ essay n i only manage to like finish part a of the essay b4 fallin asleep.. too tired from the pc lesson on wed...

4) i bought 2 sets of vcds this week!

one is my lovely kim sam soon
e other is it started with a kiss part 1

yea!!
ha..
spent alot of money this week'

ya.. tt's all.. off to watch my vcds !! n slack.. n enjoy my chinese new year!!
=)

2006-01-21T00:07:00.000+08:00

boy, am i freakin tired..

a horrible week for me..
besides the tests..my class responsibilities beong e classrep..n my revision thingy haven been gettin any better..

n one thing i've made up my mind..
i wanna ask for a change in class committee!!!
opt not to be class rep anymore..
so damn tiring..
our class is involved in this classroom decor competition..n i had to buy stuffs n organise things .. n this is NOT the only one..we, being part of banister house..had to decorate e school!!!
o man..
u know what?
i stayed back with dionne n yiyan to finish up doin e decor!!
we made 37 lanterns altogether..using 200 plus red packets.. so freakin tired..

n today's geo lecture was a great one..bcos we went for a small trip outside e school..
reason:
due to the haevy rains for the past 2 weeks.. a landslide had occured outside our school..n we finally get to see a reali life example of what we learned in our lectures..
rotational slip n slump...
wow..
i took some pictures too..
once in a life time right?
ha..

n one more thing..
i haven been able to do any revision this week..partly due to my busy life, n me being so dead tired..
i've been sleepin ALOT the moment i gets home..
besides ben online for a while n doin some quick hw..(i anyhow do em')
the next thing 'll do is sleep..
so damn tired man..

i've jus reached home not too long ago..
reason..
i've finally watched memoirs of a geisha..
it was a very last minute decision..
n for one thing i know..i was like so disappointed la..
not so nice as i thot it'll be..
abit boring if u ask me..naggy movie..
better dont watch it..

o ya.. thursday was an unlucky day for all of us..
durin assembly, i was imformed tt pc has been changed to friday..
4-5 pm..
like wad e fuck right?
i was pissed off at tt arrangement..
this was not the only thing.. we proceed to lecture hall for econs..
n we found tt there's only one row of seats for my class..
it's sp damn obvious tt one of the classes have seated wringly n they refused to admit it or do anything abt it..
n i was so pissed off.. later told tt i gave a very ah lian attitude..
it's like e second time la..!
e first time was like in e hall..the 2 classes behiond n in front of us obviously did not leave any space for my class.. n me bein the class rep had to ask pple to like be considerate to move .. n pls.. common sense can tell tt they sit wrongly ma..i'm angry at what happened in the lecture hall anyway..
so fuckin pissed off with these lo..

tt's y i un wanna be class rep le..
ive done loads of things for e class..i jus wanna rest n let someone be..
but who can be??
jus look at my class... -_-"

i'm gettin kind of tired.. n i need to sort out the things tt qifang passed to me on thursday..
it's like alot u know..need to pack my stuffs too.. chinese new year comin soon..
ah..n january is endin soon too..
n it' soo freakin tirin...
n i dunno whether if i'm stressed or not..

haiya go sleep le la..
cant be bothered to do anythin abt my blog anyway..

2006-01-19T17:27:00.000+08:00

met up with qifang today..=)
really have to say thanks to her...thanks for all those things...
i have to lug them back home.. n man it was very heavy..i had to resort to takin a taxi back home..

feelin very stressed today..
i've got this feelin tt it will be worse as time to come..

2006-01-19T01:47:00.000+08:00

a crappy week with tests, tutorials, homework as well as TORTUROUS pc lessons..
cant believe it, we had pc for 2 consecutive days..so damn tiring la..
on tuesday we ran outside sch.. n on wed, we were supposed to run 2.4 km..*ps* minus e 2 rounds of warm up..

n i got nauseous after jus 3 rounds..
too long never run like tt..my body cant tahan..
n it's gonna be a tough month..

n one more thing..
isnt it OBVIOUS? *referrin to something in particular*

back..
i've been so dead tired once i gets home!!
no energy for revision..only "anyhow" do my hw..
24 hours is not ENOUGH for me... n PLS...i need rest n sleep too..

nvm..
but one good thing...
i BOUGHT a hp!!!
ha..my second phone since graduation...

i cant bear to leave my 7250i (my first phone after graduation) but if i keep it for a longer period of time.. it would cost even lesser than it was now..
i traded in my phone at $90 bucks..when i bought it at 200++ bucks in 2004 -_-"

n guess what phone model i got??

ha.. samsung E730
http://www.gsmarena.com/samsung_e730-1115.php
even though i'm not the only one who has it.. but.. nvm.. e more e merrier!

****

seems like life's tough for most of us..
stress n everything..

but never choose to give something up...!

n one good thing..
i seems to be able to do maths this year!
yea!
only problem is jc1 work i'm still not really good at it..
ha..but its a great start for maths!

e others..
eh dunno le..
i hope tt i wont get confused halfway thru this year.. n econs is reallly gettin real HARD..
seems like we have to read alot on money issue n economy issue in ST..
hmm.. i dunno..macro part of econs is like..applyin em to real life..

inflation, stagflation, dd-pull infaltion, cost pull infaltion, fiscal policy..
ah...
so diff lik tt..

haiz..
geog..
gettin abit borin this time round..
need some mathematical calculations which everyone knows tt i hated maths.. but tryin to accept it this year..

i dunno..
still not fully geared up le...
can someone pls guide me through?
can someone tell me how many hours of revision do i need n how shld i start?

i go for effective learnin..
n i truely believe in learnin smart!
tt's like street smart mtd..but..tt's e best way for me..

i know it's late now..i'l stop bloggin n go study for my chinese test tml!!!

2006-01-15T15:18:00.000+08:00

shit.. i haven have time to do my revision..
am i goin to give up now??
NONONO!

from now onwards i'm goin to start to cheong!!!

i SWEAR!

2006-01-13T23:38:00.000+08:00

o man..someone pls stop me from all e shoppin!!!

guess what?
i became a taitai again!!!

ha..went JP with karen after school..ha..for more shoppin..
well.. i bought another top again..this time costing me $39.90...wa..ex right??

ha.. besides tt.. i also bought an accessory.. costing abt $9.80..

n WORSE OF ALL...
i bought RED EARTH NAIL POLISH!!
o my.. $24 bucks for 2 nail colours..damn ex right?
i cant believe i bought em!~

ah. but nvm..jan is a month of shoppin for me..

n e bad bad thing is..
i'm still in no MOOD for revision..
have been slackin ALOT these days..
wad e hell am i doin???
well, i dunno..

so sometimes.. i get so pissed off with myself..
n on wed.. i BLEW my temper AGAIN..wow..
my jc friends are e first few people among my all my friends who saw me blowin up my temper..
so fuickin pissed off with e sch on tt day..
stupid ezlink card thingy..which i had no intention of sayin it..unless u ask me..

o man.. for how many times have my BLEW my temper..haiz..
e moment i get angry.. i jus walk away.. scoldin under my breathe.. n IGNORING everyone..
n o ya... i'm so touched when they came over to e lib to find me..
i was like so pissed off n i decided to go to e library to rot..
so glad n touched..!
thanks..

ha.. o ya..
this week was a rubbish week..
boring lessons..an torturous pc lessons..
i threw up after pc lesson.. tt's disgusting u know..but nah..tt's history...

n o ya..
to wen..
heh.. stay STRONG..wa..i never knew tt my "scoldin" to u was effective..=P..
ok..but i was worried ok?? i guess correctly..*pro*
ha..ya.. remember what i smsed u ok??
bear those golden words in mind..

n to jas..

Happy 19th Birthday.~!
finally 19! ha.. i'm no longer alone anymore...!!
*evil grins*

ya.. n one more thing..
my time table really SUCKS..
long days..n boring lessons..
haiz..
thot jc 2 will hav shorter timetable..
but..nah.. reality is always diff..

haiz.. gtg sleep n prepare fpr tml..
gonna take my bursury..*happy ne...MONEY HERE I COME!!!

2006-01-10T09:01:00.000+08:00

=)

one piece of good news!!
i became a "taitai" yesterday!
haha.. spent $130 in just one day!

guess what i bought?
- skirt (shu nu skirt)
- shirt (exotic feel)
- earrings (3 pairs)
- bag!

all in one day!

what i did yesterday..

went orchard with my classmates yesterday.. again, there was only e 5 of us..ha..after a long day in school.. shoppin is always e best way to relief stress n fatique..

e first stop: topshop..
we,, i tried on the skirts.. but it made me look kind of weird..haha..yan found a boot which she kind of liked..but we didn;t stay in tt shop for long..cos.. some clothes r not so nice..

second stop : seiyu

looked ard n all..but never see anythin tt we liked..o i remember! i forget to go into Mango !haiz.. nvm..=(

third stop: Iora

this is the place where i finally bought my skirt!
ha.. a very shu nu style skirt! ha.. $49 bucks lo..not cheap..
i had a hard time tryin on those clthes bcos of my sch uniform.. so many buttons to unbutton..-_-"
my friends were like waiting for me to try n i even asked em to come into the fittin room instead of me goin out *shy k? ha..
i realise tt i have longer legs n a very short upper body *gao yao*
-__-" not good k?
like so diff find nice nice skirt.. cos some designs r like so...
eh... will get covered up easily..haiz..

n Iora's shoppin bag is sooo damn nice la.. all my friends wanted to get more frm e shop..but paisei.. only yan got it.. she asked for another bag..
this is what i call : shoppin "jin shen"..

by the time we stepped out of tt shop, it was alread 6 pm like tt.. jiayi had to leave alread..so after sayin our byes.. *abit nan fen nan she* we proceed to Espirit to shop.. karen was aimin for a $99 jacket n yan was aimin for e unbrella..in e end.. e umbrellas were quite BULKY and there's only XS size for karen's jacket..i think tt e jacket would look better without the string behind..-__-" what r e designers doin man.. tt string is obviously so..eee...

5th stop: herreen..
we spent alot of time lookin at the heels n tryin it on.. yan found a pair of heels which she liked after tryin.. karen was still shoppin ard.. i was too stoppin ard..nothin really caught my eyes ne..dionne also tried on some heels..at e end of e day..only yan bought...

we shopped for more things (window shoppin) before leavin herren..bought a mache hotdog bun $3 .. wa..nice se..
n walked all e way to our next destination -- pacific plaza..
well, it was rainin n it's quite hard for us to eat n walk..
n one the way to our next destination..somethin funny n RA happened..which i wont mention here..so man.. tt's soo disgusting..ha..but hor.. tt's our imagination abt tt thing ba..ha..

halfway, outside Tangs.. a man approached us..
steven lim i think.. freelance eyebrow stylist (he called himself tt)
he started sayin those very nice things like " u all so cute, so...blah blah" which i think is all rubbish..
i DO NOt believe in pple "pai ma pi" / sweet talk !
tt's soo superficial to me.. not nice say not nice.. dont say "very nice"
wadever..~~
i thot it was some GOTCHA show.. n started lookin up n down checkin whether there's any camera or what..~tt's common n orchard rd..
but.. after hearin what dionne says, guess it's true den.. but i still dun like all his sweet talk rubbish..maybe he think tt tt will coax girls ..but tt doesnt WORK for me..

6th stop : pacific plaza
by this time, we were al tired.. PLS BLAME OUR HEAVY BAGS..
dionne wasnt able to find the pencil case she wanted to buy..e pencil cases there was lik ok ok only..well, no comments actually..karen hasnt bought anythin till now..

7th stop: far east plaza
at "bus stop" (e shop name), we manged to spot some nice clothes..some of us tried on clthes n all..karen bought her first piece here..! i was kind of attracted by an exotic top..so i went to try it on after much consideration..*i had a hard time decidin whether to buy or not*
but in e end i bought it.. we manged to get some discount n all..ha..10% discount.. karen also bought a very nice accessories which cost $34 like tt..but after discount, it was cheaper..
it was nice..so definitely worth it..

we also bought alot of earrings..eh..only dionne n i..ha..damn cheap n nice.!!
ha..lOl..n of couse, i can see tt both of us are satisfied with our "goods" ha..

after a day of shoppin..all of us r soo thirsty n all.. so we stopped at a drink stall(dunno what name) .. i cant drink so drinks..so i had to give it a miss.. e other 3 bought e drinks n were praisin e drinks..lol.. tempting me to drink..ah!!
nvm, i'll try it when i recover..ha..=)

it was rather late..so decided to go home le.but den we decided 2 take a look at a bag shop!
ha..we got so excited abt the bags there! tryin on.. from what i see, e bags tt we chose r all nice! n it's diff to choose..' i understand how they feel...
ha.. in i saw a bag tt i kind of like in e shop! but it was e LAST piece! i hate last piece...e initial price was like $32bucks..but after discount..it cost $29..! ha..i'm good at discounting..ha..when it comes to money n shoppin..u have to be abit thick face..cos it will either help u save a few bucks or burn a hole in ur pocket..

when it's time to leave.. we said our byes to yan, who's takin a bus home..
e rest of us was like so tired...=(
after boardin e train..we immediately cheong for e seats *a v singaporean action* ha..
after switchin from raffles place..we had to stand..dionne found a seat after a while but karen n i had to stand.. but as our legs couldnt hold on much longer..we sat on e floor..hopin tt noone from jj would see us..ha..
feel like closin our eyes throughout e journey back..but we tried to keep awake by talkin..actually like talkin crap..cos we were so tired..also dunno what we talkin abt ne..

when it finally reached boonlay station..
dionne n i headed straight to the taxi booth..
took a taxi home..ha..dunno y these days like addicted to taxi..
e taxi driver was like soo..eh.. i told him to turn left (short cut to my hse) he keep on drivin straight..~wadever la..
first, it never stop at the place i wanted him to stop..second..he took such a long cut tt made me abit diao..

when i reached home, i imm tried on the clothes..only i find out tt the 2 clothes i bought actually matched!!haha..=)
it also matched e heels n bag i have at home!
lucky~~

ha.. i bcame a very happy tai tai yesterday..
=)
more shoppin this weekend!
haha..
=)

* attitude!* ha..~e phrase tt is used alot these days..
i sure have an attitude...ha..but who cares! ha..

some jc1s talked to dionne in the sch toilet..askin stuopid question like
" must tuck in until where ah..see waist band is it?"
wadever la..
stupid questions right?
dionne never really answer their question..
ha..well done girl..

well, when we dicussed it over the blue table durin breaks..i was like
"stupid seh.. u wan tuck out..u tuck out..u scared kana caught den tuck in..depends on what kind of student u r..dun ask seniors until lik tt ma..expect us say what?"

tt's abit mean is it??ah..
tt's attitude man..ha..
but.. attitude is a defence..
if u dont hav an attitude..others find u gullible n will be bullied easily..
tt's what i think..

enough of school stuff..more personal stuff now..

to a close friend of mine..

it's definitely alrightt to feel tt way.. u r not the only ones to feel tt way.. i've felt tt last year too..
i mean..it's jus a feelin of "insecureness"..
if u need a chat.. feel free to call.. *applied to all my friends..
i'll throw away my busy shedule to have a chat with u! ha..=)

2006-01-08T21:42:00.000+08:00

ting!!!
ur blog post very funny!!!haha..=)

to suanping n ting2...

THANKS!! LOvE u gUyS !!

*muacks!~*

thAnks AloT 4 yeSterday'S cEleBraTioN!!

to all my friends:

thanks alot too..=)

2006-01-08T13:48:00.000+08:00

our initial plans for today is cancelled AGAIN!

on 1st thot, i was diaappointed..but disappointment didnt last long..ha..
reason:
karen n i was sms-in abt shoppin for clothes..she's plannin to go bugis today.. n so am i..
but due to e last minute cancellation of my plan.. i sms her sayin tt i wont be goin to bugis today -- cant meet her up at bugis..=(

so it's been decided..
tml after school..
i'll be GOIN Bugis! yea!!! can buy my chinese new year clothes..and more shoppin'!
ha... tt's something to look forward to.. =)

n one thing.. this time round.. we wont "pon" class to go Bugis.. last year we got caught for ponnin class..bcos we wanted to go bugis..to see "someone" haha..

=)

even though, tml's timetable would be a super duber borin one.. but i really look forward to the afternoon!!
wahaha..

2006-01-08T03:31:00.000+08:00

gonna stop bloggin from today onwards..
=) wont be updating this blog too often.. n when i really do, i'll put :updated blog* in my nick!

lets invite all e spiders n cobwebs to my blog! haha..

=)

i really love those friends tt i've made!!
esp...
haha...
they make my life so interestin.. so complete.. n they bring laughter into my utterly boring life..

thanks dears..
i know tt i'm startin to play favourites n startin to be bias..pls stop me from feelin this way *hint*

n o well.. this birthday has been a fruitful one..i've recieved more presents than i had in previous years!
well, my social circle is definetly getting bigger !
thanks dears.. u guys really rocks..
u guys have done e BEST!!
n pls! gettin to know new friends doesnt literally means forgettin old ones..
they too are very impt..
if some pple doesnt gets it..jus stab urself
=P
tt's mean..ha..
ya.. enough of crap..gonna get some sleep..=) bye..

*can be contacted thru sms*

2006-01-08T01:43:00.000+08:00

Ramdom Pictures taken on 07 01 2006 =)

2006-01-07T23:51:00.000+08:00

*note : this is goin to be a very very long post...

this is how my day goes..

mornin:

i woke up, only to find that my flu hasn't been getting any better..stupid right? i paid $34 for a visit to a family doctor den never get better..it got worse than before..=(
my mum was like naggin me to go to the polyclinic to see doctor, sayin tt e medicine given at the polyclinic is much stronger..(dunno true or not)
ok..so i went to polyclinic at ard 10 plus..

something "weird" happened..
i sat on the chair n started readin my magazine - i weekly (newest) , while waiting in front of the registration counters..
and.. all of a sudden, a hand reached out.. n GRABBED my magazine..! i turned ard.. only to see a "child"..n a nurse..
e first thot tt came into my mind was ..
- o my.. it's either a kid with down syndrom
- or a mental problem patient..
e nurse was like tryin to stop tt kid from grabbin my magazine..n i was there TUGGIN hard at my magazine..
n of course i won..
but i'm sure tt there are pple ard me watchin this scene..ah..!
after that i continued to read my magazine, ignorin tt kid..
so.. when e no. of tt kid n nurse is called..they walked past me.. n tt kid's accidently bumped into me (abit only) n my reaction was like "argh! stay away from me"
i think i'm bein a meano..but i cant help it..n i still remember tt there was this incident (pri sch tt time)whereby one of my cousin with down synrdrome, grabbed my water bottle n banged it on the table.. o boy, i'm so scared of him ever since tt incident.. (i'm still a kid then) so do not blame me if i had tt reaction this time round.. i evem "SIAM" tt kid today (very obvious)..
odd incident right?

afternoon:

on my way back (99 bus) i also saw chenghao..abit shocked to see him on the bus..like so "qiao" like tt..

i spent the whole afternoon, doin rubbish..(tt's bad english)
- surf net
- tried to finish up my hw..but all did halfway den stop
- readin newspaper
- fell asleep...

zzzzzzz...

when i finally woke up.. it was like 845..
i immediately checked my hp..only shocked to find tt there r miss calls..
o man.. i overslept!
i'm supposed to meet suanping..! she's passin me things..

but it ended up to be a huge surprise!~ thanks dears..

met suanping at my blk at ard 9..i did not realise tt she was acting abit "wierd" ha..our initial plan was to go to the little hut bside my house..but e seats was WET.. so we decided to cross over to the next block..i wanted to like "jaywalk"..but suanping led me to cross the traffic lights..(i did not realise tt there's something weird at tt moment)..
we sat down n she passed me the presents (hers n ting's) can she took out a small coffee cake n started singin bthday song for me..n of course, she not the only one who sang.. SOMEONE IS SINGIN IN THE BACKGROUND TOO.. but i did not hear it..
lol.. so, me n ping continued out chit-chatting..n ALL OF A SUDDEN,
ting appeared with a huge cake (3 of us only)! i'm so damn shocked la..
ping has told me that she's helpin ting to pass present to me.. so i thot she's busy..wa....

we tried to light e candles..but e wind is too strong..>.<>.<
*muacks..*

ha.. n when e wind finally stopped, we started to lit the cake .. we sang our bthday songs once again.. n we even took a VIDEO (in ping's phone)..
well, something FUNNY happened halfway thru e singin process..

a man came up to us (me) n introducin hi9mself as "mr...RC treasurer.. wish u happy birthday"..ha.. i was shocked..cos i was makin wishes..ha..
he took out his hand n of course i took it n shook it.. n this whole process was CAUGHT ON VIDEO!! ha..
well, i got wishes from strangers at the RC too.. cos we heard pple shoutin "happy bthday" ..haha..
tt's kind of cool..
well..
we were pondering whether to cut our cake to share with em.. but looking at the "plight" of the cake,
-_-"
diao..
cannot.. e cake is in a mess..ha..
so ended up not sharin e cake..

besides tt, we even took some hilarious photos..

n i found out tt i've again MESSED UP their ready plan... second time alread.. first it was last year..now again..haha..
haha.. ting waited at ping's house while waiting for me to wake up.. heard tt my dad refused to wake me up..haha..
lucky, i woke up..ha..
if nt i'll miss tt celebration.. =)

ha.. and one more thing.. another piece of good news..
remember the bursury thingy?
karen took hers today..so i thot tt i was not shortlisted..so feelin abit down..but i got a letter today sayin tt i can get it next week!
14 jan 2006
gek poh cc (v near my hse)
must wear sch uni on tt day! haha..
well, happy!

so, my bthday ended up bein a great day despite me bein sick!
haha..=)

2006-01-07T16:42:00.000+08:00

Personal Astrology Profile for me - born on 7 jan 1987

Section 1: The Inner You: Your Real Motivation

Serious, disciplined, and quietly ambitious, you are driven to prove yourself and to achieve material accomplishments and success. Your work, your position in the world, and your contributions to society are very important to you. You will persevere through enormous hardship and frustration in order to reach a goal you have set for yourself, and you often sacrifice much in the area of personal relationships and home life in order to do so.

hmm.. this is quite true for me this moment..

Section 2: Mental Interests and Abilities

Clear, objective, and realistic, you are unimpressed by exaggerated claims or promises. You insist upon being shown facts to back up any statement you hear, and your natural skepticism often borders on cynicism. You approach problems clearly and rationally and maintain your poise and objectivity even in the midst of critical situations. Anyone seeking your advice is certain to get an unemotional and unbiased assessment of their situation, and you therefore make a good arbitrator or judge. You are thorough, conscientious, and disciplined in your thinking, and have an aptitude for business, organization, and administration. You are also a good strategist, and will plan and patiently follow a realistic course which will lead to your eventual success. Serious-minded and studious, you enjoy quiet time alone for thinking or reading.

All About You

Born under the sign of Capricorn, you are realistic in your goals and objectives. You know how to mobilize your skills to achieve the greatest results with the least amount of effort. You are sure-footed and negotiate every obstacle with care, but with a lively step. On the whole you have very good powers of concentration, and are very loyal to people that are close to you. You have a considerable sense of pride, and your inherent ambition will encourage you to aspire to move up the social scale. You like to impress people! Sometimes a negative, hopeless attitude can make its presence felt, and and you need the support of others to overcome this tendency. You need to become more detached and learn to let go when matters are out of your hands...

hmm...after readin all these.. some are true..while others are okok only..maybe i'm not so sure abt it myself too..

2006-01-07T14:17:00.000+08:00

it's my birthday today!

first of all, i would like to say thank you to all those who sent messages / gave me pressies...
- amanda
- yihao
- dionne
- karen
- jiayi
- yiyan
- vanessa
- suanping
- ting ting
- meiyi
- wenhui
- waishin
- shen yang
- yvonne cheng
- zelun
- jasmine
- chenghao
- xueli
- ailin

thanks dear friends..haha..-)

i'm especially touched by those friends tt i've made in poly as well as e 1st 3 mths..!wow..they remembered..! tt's very sweet of em'! thanks =)i'm so glad to have made friends with these guys..haha..love em loads!

for e rest, i jus wanna say thanks to all of u.. =)

*never regret enrollin into SP n JJC.. i've made great friends.. hee..=)*

2006-01-06T17:08:00.000+08:00

weekend update

it has been a relatively long weekend (well, at least for me)
n one bad thing : all e homework n revision is startin to pile up!! haiz.. sianz right? but before i think abt hw n all,
let's do a weekend recap, at least for this week!
good n bad times.. all e ups n downs..
a lucky n unlucky week!

Friday

last day of this week.. a day before my bthday..
i dunno whether to call it a GOOD day or a BAD one..
lets say the bad things first..
e bad news was : i was feelin sick.. n yes yes yes..i'm SICK! down with a bad flu/cold..
n whenever i stepped into the air-conditioned classroom, my nose would be BLOCKED! terrible feelin i'll say..n i used up 6 packets of tissue today.. n i felt the worse when it was geography lesson..
i cant breathe properly n we have to do some discussions.. n i accidentally "snap" at jiayi..opps..sorry dear..
one reason was that the medicine that i've taken is takin effect.. n i'm feelin abit drowsy n all..plus i cant breathe properly..so..ha.. u know what happened..

the GOOD thing is..
i have fun in sch n at juro point today..

mornin :
i reached school, sitting at the usual table.. my friend, amanda came up to me n handed me 2 presents.. one from amanda.. one from yihao..i was shocked bcos i thot that no one remember! wow.. my first 3 months classmates still remembered!
Thanks Amanda n Yihao !!

so we proceed to the parade square n after the mornin assembly, my cliques handed me a present!
it was a "special" gift!
Thanks... Dionne, Karen, Jiayi, Vanessa, Yiyan!!

thanks for all the pressies i received..thanks alot dears!

ok.. back to the main point..
durin GP,something funny happened..me n my cliques were sitting in the front row.. n vanessa n i decided to move out table back.. so we moved.. it was only after a while then i realise..
" how come so COLD one?"
so i stared at the aircon above me..
n when i look down , our gp tutor said
"cold?"
i nodded..
"u cant change e temp by just lookin at the aircon"
ha.. so damn funny la..
i was laughin lo..den i could hear that some of my classmates (e guys n some girls) were laughin too..
so paisei..i was not lookin at the aircon on purpose ma..well, i realise that e slit (tt controls the amount of air tt come out) was not there n there i was thinkin " no wonder" den i kana "suan" ...
-_-"

ha.. but nvm.. funny..so i dun take it to heart..LOL..

we ended school at 3 plus today.. ended earlier today.. so all of us (my clique) we went to the level 3 toilet together... n while we were outside the toilet, jiayi, karen, mi , n vanessa waited outside n started to talk abt last year "pon school" incident n tried to act out what happened last year! LOL.. damn hilarious la..so we continued on n on n laughin all the way till we were at the bus stop...and started thinkin abt where to go after school.. my initial plan was to go home straight to rest but it was changed at the very last minute..so i decided to go juro point to top up my ezlink card..

well..e bus journey was rather fun..cos we were practically laughin over some funny things..

n at juro point i met some of my friends..

at chameleon, while i was at the counter payin.. someone tapped me..
i turned n saw Suanping n Carrisa ! so shocked to see em there..had a very short chat b4 goin seperate ways..

we proceed to kopitiam to eat..we talked abt how we used to get together..
n it really seems tt i was e one tt bonded bth grps together.. haha..*prouds*
initially, jiayi n karen (old classmates were together) vanessa, dionne, yiyan (new 2nd intake) i remembered i made friends with yiyan dionne, vanessa.. and jiayi was also my friend from the 1st 3 months..so i sort of lik mixed them together..well initially, some of us were shy abt it..lol.. but well, we clicked! lol..
karen said that i can be do PR (public relations) next time..haha..lol..
ha..maybe my character suit?
lol..
well, as long as i can click with tt person, sure gt things can talk one..
ha.. this is so "Me"
haha..

when we were abt to leave, i saw Johari! shocked! he wore a business wear n he had mostache! wow..looks different frm the johari i once knew..ha.. n one thing..
it was karen who tell me that gt one guy looks good..den i turned, only to see johari..haha..=) he said hi to me... but i was carryin some file n was still in shock., so i did a little wave n muttered a "hi" which later jiayi said, was very soft..haha..LOL..
den we kept laughin at the reaction of me n him as well as karen..lol..

we keep on giggling n giggling n laughin all e way..

i really had a fun day.. this is what i like abt school n my cliques..
they make my sch life very interestin..all i wanted to say is
"thanks.. n i really hope tt this friendship would be a good one!"

tml's my big day..! o man.. really 19 years old le..so old..
but i'm still sick! n i wanna go topshop to buy the clothes i wanted to buy! lol...

Thursday

e day i fell really sick!
i used up 9 packets of tissue in school! almost one pack of tissue per lesson(1 hour) .. n i couldnt really concentrate in class bcos of my blocked nose..esp durin lecture.. i had my first econs lecture on this day n e leacturer was askin us to copy some things down..n her speed was rather fast so i had to speed up my writing.. my hands feels so sore after all e writing.. heng it was ok ok.. cos if it's too fast den all my words would be illegible..haha... n one more thing.. chinese test was postponed to next week! good! cos e night b4 i wasn't really studyin..ha.. i jus read through my notes n i doubt tt i can remember anythin..heng heng it was postponed.. if not..ha..

Wednesday

by wed, all e teachers kept repeatin that this year is a crucial year for us.. n is makin me abit stressed..
i started to regret not studyin in the holidays..haiz.. abit regret..but nvm..wad's over is over..n bad thing happened.. i sprained my ankle again... aw.. how lucky..

Tuesday

first day of school.. i got busy the moment sch starts..
reason:
our ct went for re-service n he did not leave any instruction for me..
-_-"
so straight after mornin assembly, while e rest of their classes got their time table from their cts.. i had to rush all e way to staff room n find the teachers.. n it took me quite some time to get hold of the timetable n some instructions... den i ran to the photocopy room to photocopy the timetable out for e whole class..
quite tiring..cos i had to rush before 8 (lessons starts at 8)

n the relief teacher who's in charge of me asked me to take attendance..
wa..initially i thot tt i can dun be the class rep le..
but didnt know my post would be followed up to year 2...
nvm.. i kind of like doin things for the class..*rules n regulations applied*

i wondered if there'll be any change in the class commitee...hmm..
we'll see how next time
=)

2006-01-05T15:33:00.000+08:00

1st week of 2006

unlucky week
- sprained my ankle
- caught a flu

ah.. i've got another bthday wish for this year!

2006-01-02T02:03:00.000+08:00

*note*

e owner of this blog would be away..goin on a holiday to the paradise called " wondeful land of notes"

she would be away on holiday for a year, until end of nov 2006

pls note that if u wanna contact this owner.., there's only one way..

through sms..
she can be contacted at 948*****

this blogger would only be online during the weekends.. mainly, friday (late at night), saturday, sunday (midnight-would be away, only leavin e comp on while downloadin bittorrent)

thank you =)

** in case (jus a note)**

i won't be free durin weekdays..(monday-thurs) as well as sunday..

available only on fridays(evenin onwards), saturdays..

so.. if u r askin me out on a weekday/sunday, sorry.. my answer would be a NO..
sorry for e inconvenience caused..

hope that everyone would fully abide to the above rules n regulations mentioned above

to all my friends:
take care =)
dont worry..i can still be contacted..(jus in case someone thot i go MIA)

2006-01-01T18:03:00.000+08:00

(edited*)

to everyone out there who's reading this post n to all my friends..

this will officially be the last post of my blog..(till den)
from tml onwards, i'll stop bloggin for the moment..

i'll probably update on how i celebrate my birthday =) n probably give a brief overview of how the first week of my school went by..

********

yea! 2006 is finally here..!!

postive thinkin is what i'm goin to have abt this year.. n i SERIOUSLY hope that this year would go smoothly for me..*very smoothly* i also hope that i wont be stressed or what, but i know it's inevitable..

face the fact n move on..!
towards my dreams, goals, aspirations!

to everyone..
this year will be a good year if u have postive thinkin right from the very start!

to myself:
"jia you"!

it's 1.48 am in the morning..n i'm updating my blog now whist waiting for episode 15 of "it started with a kiss" to load..hmm..think this drama series may end after 2-3 more episodes..good..the faster e better..e faster it is, i can fully focus on my studies!

haha.. yea! finished my holiday hw..but i lost one of the paper..but luckily, i finished up tt piece of hw few weeks ago! good!
today(monday) i'll probably go jp to trim my eyebrow as well as to buy highlighters... i lost my orange colour highlighter..so sad..=(

n ya.. school's startin in less than 27+ hours (counting down)
i've started to try n pack my bag.. n all i need to do now is to recheck to see if i finished all hw, dig out all those "haven-finish-teachin-notes" n sleep early tonight!

=)
wont wanna be late on e first day of school.. n i kind of forget what time i normally gets out of e house to take 99 bus to school..
i really have short term memory..-_-"

no choice..heh..better be early..

ok.. i'll stop here for now..till den!

Hiatus

2006-01-01T01:01:00.000+08:00

in the end.. i never finished up my holiday assignments..

hmm.. i'm still not in the mood yet!
today's e last day!
gonna finish em up by hook or by crook!
i need to be self disiplined!

ah..ah..ah..
nvm..
can still relax abit now..heh..=)

2005-12-31T19:19:00.000+08:00

yea! i finished watchin the whole set of vcd!
"devil beside me"

i'm a jc student n here i am slackin..hohoho..
gonna go n take a bathe now before goin to try finishin up my holiday assignments..

damn slack.. n so in the end, i never do any revision for the whole of this holiday..startin to regret abit..haiz..but what's over is over..

endin off now..
i'll update after i fnished up my holiday assignments..
=)

this is a link to all the videos i've watched..it's my playlist..so..feel free to watch it.. n sign up for it!
http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=A8080CF8F721C31D

2005-12-31T01:14:00.000+08:00

counting down to the year 2006.. (still counting)

it's time to say our byes to the year 2005 n lets give a round of applause to the upcomin year! haha..

before i said my byes to a new year, i ought to recap on some of the major events tt has an impact on my life!

(not in order)

- gettin a place in first 3 months
- gettin to know people! (all alone in a new environment, n knowing no one from "dragon year"
- becomin the vice classrep
- gettin quite involved in school activities n in plannin events
- gettin into 05A08
- being a class rep of my class
- meetin a bunch of friends who made my school life very interesting..
- managin stress..(sch)
- pw meetings (those unhappy moments n fun times)
- promo period "depression"
- arguements (2 in a year..believe it or not)
- losing my faith n trust in these people

these(above) are some of the more significant events...

now.. i'm goin to throw all these behind my mind for a year..(after my As, i'll retrieve these memories back... dont worry)

2006 _ new year resolutions !~

- study hard!
- play hard, when it's time to play!
- look after my body well. so as to cope with everythin..
- manage my stress n emotions
- control my anger..no more getting into an verbal fights..
- no more crying in the upcomin year..
- no getting into any relationships.. except friendships..!
- focus focus focus
- score well! get all As!!
- supportive friends..who will be encouragin.. not demoralising..
- let 2006 be the last year i'll be in a JC! get it?

yups.. tt's all.. hell is comin in jus a few hours time.. o man..! nervous..
i'll ba stayon home on the last day of 2005 to finish up all my hw.. so tt i can fully enjoy the first 2 days of 2006!

on the frst day of school.. i'll be startin my revision!!!
n shit.. i haven study for my chinese test!

2005-12-31T00:39:00.000+08:00

hohoho...i'm finally back home, resting nicely in front of my computer!'
haha..went shoppin with tingting n suanping yesterday(friday)..ha..finally met up! lol..

brief summary of my day with em..

- our initial plan is to watch movie @ plaza singapura..but we miss e 2 pm show..so changed of plans - to cineleisure..
- bought e 4 pm show for King KOng..n later on went for our shoppin..
- when it's 4 pm.. we went into the cinemas to watch my King Kong movie..

http://www.kingkongmovie.com/

ha.. i love this movie la..=) so cute..
ha..ok..even though i yawned for 5 times (those abit boring parts) throughout e movie..ha.. but it's a nice nice movie..
3 hours is abit too long..cos u cant tahan after two n a half hour (tt's my limit)..

back to e main point..
there was this part where King Kong is fighting against those dinosaurs.. n i love tt part..! haha.. dunno y i laughed at tt scene..guess i'm e only one who laughed at tt scene..LOL
ha.. but i really love tt scene.. cos it made me laugh..
haha..best! man..

after e movie, wo took a taxi straight to Bugis for more shoppin..n gues what, e driver is damn funny la..he kept talkin n jokin to us..n i was there findin chance to ask for discount! lol..cos he was playing some guessin game with us.. so if he cant answer, we all asked uncle give discount..
lol.. nice uncle..so funny..

n after we alight, we went for more shoppin n had a late dinner at the kopitiam at bugis village..n at the parco bugis junction..but by the time we wanted to shop parco, most of e shops had closed n we went to find empty table outside mos burger to chat..

n when it's abt 11, we set off to take train..

well, in conclusion.. i had fun today..lol

n i dunno what to do on my birthday.. how am i goin to celebrate?
i have no idea..well..hmm.. i see lo..

dont look forward to it..cos i'll be much older than all my classmates by 2 years! n all my friends by 1 year! haiz..

anythin..

2005-12-29T21:27:00.000+08:00

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2005-12-29T19:37:00.000+08:00

even though e song is not so "my type" but this clip is kind of nice..
=)

2005-12-29T01:18:00.000+08:00

did not managed to finish everythin today.. i'll try finishin it up by tml..hmm..
guess friday would be the last day that i'm goin out..gonna stay home n start preparing for my chinese test tt will be on the second chinese lit lesson..

freedom is ending soon..
too fast, too short..
n happiness is always short-lived.. dont u think too?

2005 is comin to an end.. n i'll probably have to start to make new year resolutions..

*edited* *edited*
i deleted some parts tt i dont wanna show..

in conclusion..

i really need a good listenin ear.. to listen to what exactly i have to say..
i need alot of freedom..i need pple who listens..but doesnt restrict my actions..

tt's what i always wanted..
i hate the feeling of being "controlled"

2005-12-28T15:33:00.000+08:00

5 more days to go before school starts!
have to set some goals right now..
- no more surfing of e internet everyday!
- no more bloggin for me, except when i'm free!
- every monday would be a rest day for me! ha..will be watchin the video"it started with a kiss" tt i'll be dl-in every sunday! haha
- no more goin out shoppin..! maybe i'll still be goin out durin the first few weeks..bcos of chinese new year!
- i'll be like a monk..throwing everythin behind me..only to concentrate on studies!
o shit! i still have a chinese test to study! die!
- limit myself to the no. of hours goin out..
- i'll be DAMN busy..
- no more regrets..i dont wanna have any regrets in 2007!

enough of this.. i think i better go n start doin my hw n start studyin for chinese test!
bye.. tt's e last post of today!

2005-12-28T15:14:00.000+08:00

some changes to my plans for today..
it's been changed to friday! lol

so, now, i'm surfing the net aimlessly..haha..
i'll try to complete my holiday assignments today.. haiz.. writing essays again..sometimes i get so sick of writing essays!!!
y am i in e arts ? bcos i have to write essays n more essays!

blah..

i'm jus sick of all these.. i dont wanna think abt it anymore..
let it be e way it is..
i gave these away..jus to see a smile..but am i gettin my returns?

2005-12-27T22:21:00.000+08:00

took a quiz from the link given by my friends...
this is my answer:
Yellow

You're yellow, the color of joy and energy — two things you definitely bring to everyone around you.
It's hard for anyone to be sad or lonely in your presence; your sunny disposition and cheery outlook just won't allow it.
The warmth of your personality shines through in the kindness you show friends and family (and strangers, too).
Always ready with a lighthearted joke or heartfelt compliment, you know how to make people feel good about themselves, so they can't get enough of you.
Yellow is a warm and inviting color for a warm and inviting person — you!

2005-12-27T20:46:00.000+08:00

note * this is gonna be a very long post, as my day (today) is very dramatic..

it had this very very weird dream abt w, j, x,a n of course, me..
in my dream, we were shoppin at a huge boutique..n one of em, (not me) decided to steal some clothes..n in my dream, i kept saying that i have a bad feeling abt it.. but yet, noone listened.. one of em had no comment abt it.. e others disagreed with me..
so, whatever i say.. noone listened..
we went to the cashier to pay for some of the things i bought.. n there, the police came n caught e other 3 whole..only me n the one of them werent caught (bcos we never steal)...
this dream ended with me n the other one tryin to leave tt place in a bus..
weird huh..?
it's damn errie esp when i thinkn tt it som,ehow coincides with real life

o ya..
n when i woke up, it was 1258pm..
O SHIT is the word tt come into my mind when i saw the time..
as i said in the previous post, i had a surprise planned for waishin..(e bthday girl).. well, me n meiyi planned it the night bfore..n i told waishin tt i will not be comin to meet them today.. but my "surprise" for her is tt i'll be appearing! ha.. it has been months since we last went out!
ha.. back to the main point again..
i jumped out of my bed, grabbed my towels n headed to the bathe straightaway..!

so i was well prepared by 1.15..fast! haha.. i just grabbed my mp3, wallet, threw my makeup kit into my bag n ran out of the house..
well, e meeting time was one thirty at PS..n i was runnin late n i was supposed to give waishin a surprise!

so..i hopped on to a taxi (silver cab) n told the uncle this
"uncle, PS..can drive faster ma. i'm in a hurry.."

ok.. tell u what, i regretted sayin tt to the uncle..
reason:
- it was rainin very heavily..n it's very unsafe for cars to speed/ travel fast when it's rainin..

e uncle drove at a fast speed (85km/hr?) -- i dunno how to read off the meter clearly..roughly gauge only..
n this whole taxi journey was a nervous one for me..

throughtout the whole journey, i kept holdin on to the "strap" n praying that the uncle would drive carefully n not to get into any accident..

wad a journey!
i cant relax throughout the whole journey!
haha..
so the taxi fare was rather cheap
from my house to PS -- $13.70
ok..i was not late at all..ha..
i reached Fisn Co earlier than the rest!

haha..
e birthday gal was late! ha.. so i waited at the Fish n Co @ *(near PS) for them to arrive..
actually everyone knew that i'm comin..
xueyun, meiyi, n joshua..lol..
so i waited n waited..
ha.. n finally, they r here!
waishin sure is shocked..!ha..

n we settle to eat our Fish n Co..
n the atmosphere at Fish n Co was great, with the great music n the "romantic" feel outside FIsh n Co.. (it was rainin, remember?)

we really had a sumptuous meal!
n i finally ate the "SEAFOOD PLATTER FOR TWO"! ha..
well, we ordered alot of things n the table seems so crammed..!
we ordered :
- Garden Salad
- Sweet & Sour Fish
- Seafood Platter for two
- Prawns Vermicelli
- one JUMBO sized drink - jungle ____(forget the name)haha..
- 2 ice teas

n my o my.. seafood platter is soo damn nice la!
i love it man!!!
it was jumbo sized to us..haha.. very full!

haha.. well, we took photos, videos, passed the pressie, sang out bthday song n took turns finishin up that JUMBO sized drink..haha..n we took lame pictures too..

n in total, e bill was not expensive at all la..!
it only costs us $16 dollars each! believe it?
ha.. much cheaper than the $24 meal i had at Fish n Co on sunday!(few days ago)
ha.. n the food is god damn nice!haha..

actually we wont be leavin the Fish n Co so soon.. but it seems that the waiter there is like trying to hint us to settle our bills..
so we settle it quickly..initially , the totally amt adds up to $ 99+ (below $100)
but than, all thanks to xueyun, she found a mistake in e bill!!
ha.. we managed to get 10 bucks back! cool right?
haha..

it was still drizzling when we left FIsh n Co..n we planned to take pictures of the "LOVE" statue (in case u dunno) ha.. ok.. n in order to take the photos, we have to climbed up la..ha.. me n shin is wearin skirts n had a hard time getting our butts up! haha..
but we managed by pulling each other up..haha..
we took a few photos.. n one of which josh seems to look like some ghost! hiding in between the V word! lol.. e rest of us jus stayed in a small gap between the letters!haha.. so cute la..

after taking the photos, the rains seems to be getting bigger n bigger..so waishin, (e only one with umbrella) tooks hers out n the 5 of us squeeezed under one umbrealla while waiting for the traffic lights..ha.. but when e lights turn green , meiyi n josh started runnin..LOL
like some "love chasing like tt" ! ha.. o well, the rest of us, stayed under the umbrella, n laughin at the view we r watchin..so damn funny..

ha.. meiyi recommended to go to a cafe - MINDCAFE..(heard of it?)ha..
but it was rainin n we couldnt walk there so we went to the arcade to play as well as to wait for the rain to stop..
too bad, e rain never stopped, but it bcame a small drizzle again.. havin no choice, we walked all the way from PS to paradiz shoppin centre..
ha.. never heard b4 (paradix shoppin centre) so it was our "virgin walk" ha..lol.. actually we dunno how to go there exactly, but we jus walked on..n luckily, we managed to find it!
haha..

when we get into the MINDS CAFE, it was full..aw.. so sad right..
so we have plans to either go k box, play pool..
but it was alread ard 5 o clock ... so it isnt worth it to go k box,..so we walked up n down that row of shop houses b4 deciding to cross over to paradiz shoppin centre..
we wanted to play pool.. but duno y one table cost $ 6! n we think tt it's definitely not worth it cos it cost ard $ 3 ++ in other places.. left with no choice, we jus sat at the food court, (in front of poh kim) n watch the movie, "the maid"

by the time it was 5 .30, we had to set off back to PS , as xueyun will be workin at 6.. said our byes.. but e rest of us.. 3 girls n a guy shopped at PS
we sat at the foodcourt, ordered a plate of fruits "acting healthy" ha..we r healthy.. n had a chat, we discussed abt havin steamboat at josh's house during chinese new year (e 3rd day) lol..

when it was time to go back , i had to go back to my jurong alone..haha..
ha..well, yi n shin live in sengkang n ponggol n josh lived in tampiness.. we we had to part in dif ways..
but we made this promise to meet up during chinese new year! haha..o good! haha..
=)

i enjoyed myself to the fullest today n my loud laughter is back again, when i'm with em..haha.. o well, all of us r loud laughters! lol..

n it's kind of weird to know that after i left poly, bernard n izzy left the course too.. kind of sad right?.. a class of 20 students bcame one smaller class.. n there's even some new pple comin into our class..hmm..

n in conclusion,
it's nice to meet up with my poly pals!lol..
tada..

* photos will be uploaded once i received those photos!*

=)

n tml i'm goin out again, with ting ting..we are plannin to watch e movie "King Kong"! heard tt it's nice..
ha..spendin money again..LOL..
but it's a 3 hr movie, think it's worth it..
i'm glad to know that i'm actually enjoyin the last week of my holiday to the fullest!

gee.. glad =)

2005-12-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

*lookin forward to today's (tues) event!* hahaha...
i've a huge surprise for a great friend of mine!!
haha...yups..
so happy to be meeting up with my poly pals again!
ha.. with meiyi waishin xueyun as well as joshua..! it's a pity tt others cant come.. i miss zarifah n meena n others! ha.. but nvm.. till den.
n we r eating Fish n Co tml!
actually i'm shocked tt we r eating at Fish n Co..cos i've just ate it on sunday n i'm eating it today(tues) again! ha.. think i'll be trying something new tml..!
yes!
i misses em alot!
hahaha... =)
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i dont wish to think abt or harp over something tt has already happen.. if we think tt things will get back to normal, it will..if it doesnt i doesnt..
i dont wanna think abit it,whether it's a misunderstandin or not..
it's over..
i may/may not forgive n forget..
this i'm not sure..who knows, it depends..
all i know is.. to me, it's tough to simply forget abt what happened tt used to hurt me so much..what happens means happens, i dont tend to forget things easily..(it's not only just issue alone)
i remember.. but as times goes by, e memory of it will slowly fade off.. ( as long as i dont think abt it )

today, i did not say what exactly i wanted to say.. i probably only said half of what i had in mind..
guess, i'll not say tt out anymore..it's a secret.. n i wont tell anyone..

who doesnt miss those sec sch days..we all miss it.. but we cant travel back in time anymore..
it's Over..

pple may say
" y am i so 'xiao qi" "

i have nothing to say.. i dont wanna explain abt how i feel anymore..

there's a sayin.. let bygones be bygones, but in fact, it's easier said than done..

pple may oso say
" y am i so stubborn"

but there are certain things tt i truely "hate" n yet pple have done it to me..

probably bcos i'm a capricorn (remember?)
a capricorn is ...
(view this previous post)
http://icysoursoplove.blogspot.com/2005/12/i-saw-this-horoscope-link-from-wenhuis.html
i'm not someone who can forgive n forget abt things easily.. i tend to remember things tt has huge/big impacts on my life..

this is something tt has a huge impact on me..so i cant forget easily *tt's a gaurantee*

n i'm always in a foul mood these few months, starting from august onwards..n these days, i let my emotions control me..
i show all my feelings on my face..n it's getting so obvious..

even though not all pple have told me tt.. but i really feel tt my temper is gettin bad..i'm more easily getting provoked than i was in sec school..

when i was in poly, i was e so called " no temper" person.. even in first 3 months, i've never flar up or what..

maybe to others, i'm still e same (i dunno)
but to me..
i've changed.. i've somewhat changed..
i'm no longer e way i am last time..(my opinion)

it's my thinkin n everythin..
n probably bcos we never hang out too much oso..
probably no one has noticed..

my buddies cum classmates (dion. yan, karen, van, jiayi) we once talked abt this "bad tempered" topic..
n i was one of those with "bad temper" n of couse i deny that i'm not.. but i have to face to reality that i'm being one these days..
ha.. of course i'm not e only one..ha..

n in case anyone has noticed, (which i dont think alot have) i no longer laugh alot..i jus smile and cluckle at e jokes..has anyone ever noticed that?

even jiayi once told me i not as "siao siao" laugh alot anymore..
i still laugh.. but not as cheerful as before..
has anyone noticed that?
has anyone told me things like tt?
probably only those whom i always hang ard noticed tt change..

i dont even have this feelin that my old friends have..
i dont sense any care n concern..(maybe i'm wrong.. pls correct me n explain to me..)

maybe i'm wrong..

plus.. as someone says..
"y i got so fed up n all"

tell u what..
i bring up all those past issues together with this issue(u know what)

to u guys, probably things is still e same.. but e feeling i get is " it's not e same anymore"
y am i havin this feeling..?
i dunno.. dun wish to explain, after so many things..

"Emotional" - "gan qing yong shi"
yes.. this time it is me who's bein "emotional"

n i mention n emphasize again
there is no right or wrong
it's all how i feel..

some things may be getting back to normal.. but some things dont/haven yet..

i dunno what to do abt it..
all i wanted is a stress-free life.. but everything seems to be adding on to my stress instead of relievin it..

i'll think abt it over again.. i'll try to see if my heart thinks e other way..

*edited*
n this thingy that i hate is happening again..
tell u this.. i truely "hate" this thingy..

i explained.. yet it doesnt sound vaild again.. u know what i mean..
i had no means for any fight anymore..
i dont want to explain it anymore..

things may gets hostile again..

2005-12-26T14:48:00.000+08:00

ah... episode 14 of "it started with a kiss" is damn nice ! very sweet! esp tt christmas celebration that part!!
~ i'm lovin it! hahaha..

2005-12-26T01:35:00.000+08:00

o my god!! o my!!!

"it started with a kiss"DVD is out in taiwan!

haha..tt's good! tt means e vcd may be out in Singapore soon! ha.. i cant wait..
* if any of u saw the vcd of this show "it started with a kiss" out in Singapore, pls call me immediately! i'll zoom down within minutes to get it! ha..ha..

aw.. i'm happy.. =)

2005-12-25T23:56:00.000+08:00

hohoho.. i'm home..!
after all e washin up n packin of my things, i'm finally back in front of the computer! now waiting for episode 14 of "it started with a kiss" torrent! haha..*forever*

what did i do today??

i met up with jiaxin n wenhui to celebrate christmas @ suntec..
_________it started with... (in brief)
- i woke up at three plus in the afternoon , woken up when my father knocked my door n telling me
" u meet ur friend at four, what u doin now?"
i woke up all of a sudden! i was so shocked! i compltely overslept! ah..but luckily, e time we are meeting is changed to 6 o clock..
- ate a sumptuous dinner/lunch/breakfast (tt's e first food i ate today..) haha.. i had some sambal fish n chips (forget what's e name of tt dish called) and a cocktail! ( passionfruit n vodka) - bad hor..drinkin alocoholic drinks..ha..(wont get drunk one)
in total, i spent $ 24 bucks..!
- went to e musical fountain to sit, enjoy e view n took alot of photos!
- went home..
- on e way home, i was asked a question (i wont mention what here - if u know u know).. i hesitated at that question..took a long time considering abt this particular question..n in e end, my answer is a NO..
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*
"hatred is still in my heart..
i doubt that it'll disappear in a weeks..it will either stay for months or for years or forever..i dunno.."

2005-12-25T01:32:00.000+08:00

i can finally log on to msn! ha.. no more using of window messenger! ha.. i really hate window messenger..!!haha

i changed my blog song to a longer version.. the previous one was only the chorus..
but listen to this long version carefully.. there's this part which is played by flute (i think) n i think it's e flute used by chinese orchestra..
it's kind of nice.. i mean tt flute part..
this is a really sad song.. if u've watched tt anime, naruto..u'll know it..
cos when the anime plays this song..it's either someone jus died or something is lost..so tt's what make this anime so nice..bcos it not only consists of all e fighting, it's also about friendship, humour, n courage n from this anime.. it tells us not to give up easily as one's fate is not decided..we have to use our own effort to change it..
i love this part, as it really gives me alot of encouragement.. even though i already know abt all these.. but it jus adds on..
yups.. highly recommended.. ha.. but actually i like e humour n funny parts more than those fighting parts..it really makes me laughs like mad.. n when i mean mad, i mean it..haha.. i can laugh until i can feel that my stomach cant take it anymore..haha..
if others sees me, they might be wondering why i am so crazy, laughin to myself..haha..

hmm.. who would have thot tt i'l would be addicted to this anime? initially i thot tt such anime are for kids..but after watchin it, i dont feel this way anymore..it is meaningful..
u'll probably learn some things like i did!
i've been watchin abt 3/4 of the 165 episodes of e anime..i did skipped some parts.. but i roughly know e story already.. cant wait for it to end..
think i can only watch it during e weekends..
probably have to plan a time table..
one for revision, one for slackin abit.. (i need rest)

n conclusion: i love naruto! i love kakashi!

2005-12-24T23:46:00.000+08:00

december 25.. christmas day...
while we are all enjoying ourselves..
do not forget abt the tragedy that happened on december 26 2004
always remember tt in mind while havin our share of fun..
n one more thing..
Merry Christmas !

2005-12-24T16:54:00.000+08:00

i spent the whole mornin and half of the afternoon trying to change my blog skin as well as watchin my anime - naruto ..
so damn nice n funny..ha.. it sure kills time..=)
n i found an excellent website!! tt helps generates lots of codes, buttons n all.. when i have e time.. i'll post it in my blog! haha..
*i wont post the link here, as i will only give some pple this link only*
due to some last minute changes, i had to make other last minute changes.. very troublesome, pls dont do it ever again..
now waiting for my mp3 to finish chargin before i can go out..it's about to finish chargin!! yups..!

it's christmas time.. remember??
aw.. christmas = presents = money..
broke..!

2005-12-23T23:01:00.000+08:00

i no longer feel that i'm e _______ anymore..
some things happened this year..n i'm sure that it's these things that totally change my _______ towards ________ *

n it's only _______ whom i think my _____ have changed..
n i gave myself a ______ _____ whenever i'm there..
in any case that _____ think tt something's not right anymore
_____ may have to ask him/herself y

to me, e reason is simple..
it's tt ______ that i get..
using a ___ bun to stick a ____ butt is defintely something that i will not do..

i feel ______
i dont feel like _______ some things with ______
whenever i ______ _______,
_____ often not _______ me the things i needed..
i wonder if there is any point in ________
does it still matters after all?

when i _____ _____,
is there any _______?
n why, of all i chose not to _______ _______
but turning my attention into other _______

so, i ask myself..
i think n rethink..
is it still _______ for me to ______ it?
or should i just ______ on, n continue my life..
or is it jus ______ by itself...?

"is it still _____ my attention n _______ n _______?"

i hope tt e answer is _____
but..
if my heart doesnt feel this way..
guess...
something is probably ______
no point in ______ over something that is _____, after so ____ _____...

are ____ still up for it?
e answer is something i dunno..

______ ______
i no longer _____ a _____ of ______ in _____ anymore..
this is e ______ i get...
sometimes, i still _____ that ____
but if we use our fingers to count..
how many times??

_____ of the time
n almost _____ i jus ____ ____ _____ to _____
everything _____ _____ __ ______
being able to come up with various ____ to ___ ____
so,
sometimes, i ____ it
there's always a ______ to everythin..
when things gets too much / or too far to handle..
poeple have to accept the fact that ____ _____ _____

so if i'm e only one ______ this _____
let it be..
i really ______ ______ it _____
it feels as though ______ are _______ instead

this ______ has been in my _____ for quite some time..
within such short period of time..
(one year is oso equal to short)
_____ have i _____ it so strongly till _____ _____
it only proves that _______ is _______
i doubt that ______ will get _____ to _____ at this _____
dont ____ _____ my _____ or spend ____ _____ over _____

maybe i _____ jus _____ __ totally on ____ _____
i'll have to ______ with _____ n _____on...
no more _______ to catch up with all these..

if i _______ something...
what will i _______ in the end?

i dunno..
i can't forsee the future
no one can..

this is not the _____ of everythin..
i need to ______ ______, with a _______ _______
i believe that if i ____ ____, i'll never _____ e _____

` end ~

holidays is definitely comin to an end soon..
i really cant imagine how tough my life would be next year
unimaginable.. unless i've gone through it.....

i've thought it over..
just throw everything behind my mind..., behind me..

hell is comin soon..i knew it..
9 more days..
jus 9 more... jus thinkin abt it..makes me stress..
i dont care whether i've done my holiday assignments or not..or whether i have not done any revision this holiday..

but i care abt how i'm goin to get thru 2006 with all that..

what if
what if

no more chance to fail / score badly
no more..
it's a dead end..
for those who just graduate..
there's still chance..
but i know tt i stand NO chance anymore..

how am i supposed to get into tt mood when 2006 starts??
how am i supposed to enjoy my 19th birthday with all these?

i dread this day.. hopin tt this holiday wouldnt end so soon..
i havent had enough playin, shoppin, slackin..
n i have loads of vcds, videos, books, comics waiting for me to finish em up..

i wanna slack for another year..
but it's impossible..

i dont wanna celebrate 2006 countdown this year..

think i'll slack at home or in front of the computer, doing all the things i like..

i dont want to face it..

next week is the last week...
i have to save up this week
inn order to get all these..

gonna buy some things to stock up in my bedroom closet..
gonna complete these things within next week

- facial
- buyin facial masks
- pens
- one more shoppin spree (spend all my money at a go)

i've already stocked up one whole set of foolscap paper tt is goin to last me for the next half year...

i need more things..

- junk food??

as if i'm goin to some army trainin..
what esle do i still wanna do?

i dunno yet.. if i have an idea... i'll update this post..

but come to think of it..
what am i doing on this day of 2004?

i'm applyin for application into those "possible" jcs

how time really flies..
a blink of an eye..
n it's gone..gone forever..
"qing chun bu liu bai"

2005-12-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to _____ some people

2005-12-23T13:16:00.000+08:00

some girl added me in friendster..
but i like something she wrote abt herself..
"everyone has some type of artificial exterior to them...to what extent? That I do not know... people will presume you if you dont let them know the real you.. Saying that you are Different from others and that you are Unique simply just states you aren't because the fact that a countless number of people SAY that, automatically puts you in a category... " ~ extracted...

she can write something like this..
wow..

christmas is jus ard e corner! yea!!

2005-12-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

finally back home..i love my bedroom!
i'm really tired from all the things.. shoppin..n all..
my legs feels so sore again.. n on my way back home, (while takin e train)..suddenly my leg..(it's e nerves) is cramped..had to stand up n put all my weight on my right leg (tt's e leg) so as to make e pain stop..luckily, it only lasted for a while..
back to e main point..
(in chronological order)
went juro east lib to find "ni kuang" books..we (me n vanessa) finally found the thinnest book! haha.. after some consideration.. cos there was another "ni kuang" book that is thinner.. but e story is scarier.. about some ghost thingy.. n of course, i'm e first person to say NO to these kind of books! haha..ok.. n "ni kuang" books are mysteries.. (chinese)... n i dont really like chinese mystery books.. i like english ones better.. n i like chinese love novels instead of some weird "ni kuang" books..
ah ya.. we tried to sit down n read the books.. but we couldnt sit still cos we keep wanting to chat..ha..by 4, we gave up.. acc vzan to buy soya bean n we proceed to CPF buliding to enquire on some issues!!

** POLY STUDENTS: (take note!)
if u r currently using ur parents cpf to pay for tuition fees..pls be reminded that u have to pay em back once u quit / graduate..
n i've received a letter telling me to pay up! i's a freakin $1200++ ok..tt's only for like one sem.. so imagine u r there studying for 3 long years..!!
tt's it.. i have to repay my daddy..no matter what..
hmm.. now i'm thinkin whether i should borrow mony from my dad's cpf when i go uni...die! no money! shit... haiz... must cheong liao.. see whether i got chance to apply for bursury/scolarship (go overseas or what..)
die.. dunno what to do.. borrow frm bank or cpf..hmm.. i want scolarship!!! i want it soo bad!
ok.. back..
after tt, i went to boon lay to buy "towels" (tt is on offer)..but it was out of stock..went to meet wen at orchard after her work..
Orchard is so damn crowded.. n the crowd is startin to make me feel pissed off bcos i was feelin abit dizzy throughout e whole shoppin trip..
bought alot of stuffs at waston while waiting for wen..
- 2 "towels"
- one lip gloss
- lip balm
-make up remover sheets
- pink panter cushion..
(tt's for me to lean on when readin on my bed!..so cute!)
- hair moisturizer
spent alot already hor...
ok.. n i was so damn hungry cos i skipped breakfast n lunch..ha..i was busy watchin anime.. (fei qin wang shi) den i had to rush off to meet van..
ate in a restaurant called "Pepper Lunch"..cost me approx $13.80 lik tt..
i paid without feelin a pinch.. but come to think of it now.. should have ordered something cheaper...cos ..
- 6 pathtic piece of chicken ( abit uncooked oso)
- tou gae(beansprouts) oso abit uncooked..
- 2 small piece of carrot..
- 3 "strands" of dunno what veggie
- one cup ice lemon tea
wow.. like tt cost $13.80 meh??
of course, i think tt..e restuarant may be earnin money like mad..cos the inital cost for those food is (i bet) less than $6!!
minus the cost of renting n their "marketin strategies" i bet that they must have earn some "big money"!!
ha.. ok.. cos i ate those abit uncooked meat n beansprouts..ha..tt's y i like grumbin now..cos i wan cooked food.. but i can say tt e sauce is nice though..
spend all e money i've saved up this week!! bah.. nvm ba.. take it as a " christmas shoppin spree" !
n on e way back i was tired.. so i kind of dunno what i tokin oso.. abit in a daze...
o ya..van reminded me that there's a chinese test comin up when sch starts.. shit.. one word.. die..ha.. nothin has been accomplished this holiday..but i had my fill of fun.. really relaxed alot.. (tt's really alot).. dunno if i can get back to tt "stressful" mood again..
tml's plan..
stay home n read up tt storybook..n watch anime...haha... n i'm still not confirm whether this saturday' is still on or not..hope by tml can at least get a reply..

2005-12-22T09:41:00.000+08:00

YOUR BIRTHDAY: 7 January (CAPRICORN)

Your personal ruling planets are Saturn and Neptune.

You are ruled by the mythical God, Neptune, which describes your nature most adequately. Just like the vast ocean you are restless, moody and fond of change and travel. You love the water and places connected with the sea.

You possess unusual and original ideas on religion and philosophy. It means your compassion has risen to sublime heights and you will do anything for a person in need. In this respect, you must learn to balance your own needs lest you become a victim of the people you are trying to help.

You have strong psychic abilities that relate to the water element and you can use this talent, not only to your own advantage but for helping others as well. All of the healing and helping professions are well suited to your nature.

Your main lessons are to learn to take better care of your material life so as to enjoy your future fully.

Your lucky colours are the darker green shades.

Your lucky gems are turquoise, cats eye chrysoberyl, tigers eye.

Your lucky days of the week are Mondays and Thursdays.

Your lucky numbers and years of important change are 7 , 16, 25, 34, 43, 52, 61, 70, 79.

Famous people born on your birthday include Millard Fillmore, Charles Addams, Kenny Loggins, Erin Gray, Nicolas Cage and Michelle Behennah.

***** ******* *****

You were born under the sign of Capricorn and are known by others to be the type of person who has your feet planted firmly on the ground. Always practical and cautious in everything you do, you are extremely self-contained and at times this bothers you; you wish it could be otherwise. It takes you quite a while to open up emotionally and express your deeper feelings. You would rather be a little suspicious and take your time in getting to know someone rather than making blunders by being too impulsive.

You need to deliberately think things through and always with a view to safeguarding your material security and financial interests. You see hard work and commitment to your goals and ideals as essential if you are to make this happen. You are resourceful and even if you don’t have financial or emotional support, you’re prepared to go it alone and see your dreams come true. At times a pessimist, you would argue that this is simply being realistic and not expecting too much from life, only what you deserve. Your key life phrase may even be “Expect the worst, but hope for the best”.

2005-12-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

heh.. naruto is really a nice anime..
so touchin.. n funnny la..
i was laughin at the funny scenes n nearly crying at those touchin scenes..
hmm.. v v nice...
n i've dl "zhong ji yi ban"
not v nice.. ok ok only..
ha.. but naruto's nice..
update till here.. back to watch e anime!

2005-12-21T14:13:00.000+08:00

ha..i'm slackin now.. '
my plans for today..
is to watch videos in the afternoon.. and do maths at night..haha..yups..
tt's all..hmm..
n today i'll be meetin up with vanessa to do our chinese assignment..ha.. goin to sch lib..lol.. yups..

n there's one more weird thing..my classmate in sec sch.. johari messaged me.. n i feel weird..cos e tone of e sms doesnt sound like e tone tt i know..hmm...???

2005-12-20T21:16:00.000+08:00

did a quiz..this is e results..

At your darkest moments, you feel guilty.

At work and school, you do best when you're researching.

When you love someone, you tend to agree with them often.

In friendship, you are considerate and compromising.

Your ideal careers are: business, research, counseling, promotion, and speaking.

You will leave your mark on the world with discoveries, new information, and teaching people to dream.

2005-12-20T16:49:00.000+08:00

slacked again..ok.. give myself one more day to rest.. hmm..
n i finish dl "nana movie".. but too bad there's no subtitles..n i dont understand japanese..but luckily, i've read the comics.. so roughly know what's happeneing.. very touchin movie.. hope tt the vcd may come out..or hope tt it'll be in theatres soon...yups..

n i was so bored tt i go n watch naruto..ok.. it's an anime..hmm..quite an intersttin show.. very touchin..feel like cryin at some scenes..ok..i dun really get touched easily.. this is one show tt can move me...not bad.. highly recommend..

i've been watchin alot of videos, vcds, shows this holiday.. hmm.. wad an achievement..!haha..
off to watch my shows.. tada...

2005-12-19T23:15:00.000+08:00

ended up watchin videos at home n sleepin for e whole day..
damn slack..gettin more n more restless..
i'm now tryin to dl nana movie from bit torrent.. after dl for almost a day.. stuck at 60%..hope tt it'll speed up..really..
this holiday is completely wasted..=P
hopeless..
no mood or anythin..jus thnkin of muggin abit sianz..
cos there's this mindset
" holiday u know.. study for what? siao ah.. sch start u can study all u wan..now play! next year cannot play!"
with such a mindset.. how am i supposed to study??
maths.. cannot make it le.. tml i try practisin again..

n i jus woke up not long ago.. my sleepin routine has gone bonkers..
well i has this dream..
i was in jjc.. dunno goin there for what.. i remember seein imran.. n a few jc1.. all of them there studyin..practisin maths.. c maths..den i was there walkin here n there like that, buyin milo.. 3 packets to drink.. weird??
then i wanted to go home.. but i forget wad my bag is like.. den i saw chingloi.. y she's in jjc?? hmm.. ok jus when i saw her.. i saw a bag that i have (same bag durin sec 3) den i saw 2.. i jus walk up n unzip it..i opened 2 of them.. inside one of e bag.. e contents looks familar.. but i like cannot remember at tt moment..
chingloi came.. i sort of talked.. den she say tt's my bag..
den dunno y i go unzip someone else's bag..saw my uniform there.. i was wearin jjc sch pe shirt... story ended.. i woke up..
weird leh..i keep havin dreams about school.. my school jjc..
abt school life..n pple ard me revisin..
ok..maybe i startin to get kan cheong..lol.. but weird..isnt imran supposed to have graduated from jj? some jc 1 i remember is huiling...lyanne (correct spellin ma?) n some 05A06's girls..(ah go class)
i can only remember these few..v weird...

hmm.. now i dunno whether i will start my maths tml..tt's e point.. stay home sianz.. will slack.. go out.. will sure spend money.. i theses days goin for alot of retail therapy..i dont really mind goin out alone sometimes..used to it le..cos i cant everytime pull pple to acc to go everywhere one lo.. plus.. i do things at my own pace when i'm alone..i shop v long time.. decidin on what i want n so on.. i shop with my mp3 in my ear, listenin to music n let the music takes me to some lala land..ha..
goin lib? hmm.. den must v early..den my lib card cannot borrow books le.. gt fines.. six dollars plus.. den if go juro east lib, i wan to go sit at cafe there drink coffee n read magazine one lo..tt's one nice thing to do..
dunno la.. depends on my mood tml lo..managed to save quite alot these days.. scared tml go out finish spendin it..heh heh
haiz.. this holiday i always ask myself this question le..

haiz.. see first la..if tml feelin restless, den forget it lo..
dunno go where do maths good oso.. wan jp cos nearer to my hse..den gt free transport oso.. jp bus.. save money..=) but jp no place can sit there do things quietly..
je lib.. abit far.. this holiday go a few times.. walk there also walk sianz le.. even went imm there shop finish le..
clementi.. forget it.. no place
school? need wear sch uni.. dun wan la..
diao.. no where liao.. go gek poh? go there need buy things to eat one lo..waste money on fast food..
shit.. sianz ah...

2005-12-19T13:38:00.000+08:00

yea!! i've finished watchin "it started with a kiss 13"!!
ha..happy is the word to describe this feelin...
it's already one plus.. i dunno if i want to go library do maths or stay at home.. but if i stay home.. i wont be able to concantrate.. alot of distractions.. n if i go out..i'll spend money...

2005-12-19T01:03:00.000+08:00

i'm downloadin my bittorrent files.. maybe will take abt 5 hours like that.. think i better go and catch some sleep n leave my comp on..
hmm.. lets hope it takes a shorter time this time..
=)
tada.. till den.. i'll update more things after finish loadin..
i love "it started with a kiss"

2005-12-18T22:44:00.000+08:00

waiting for "it started with a kiss" episode 13!

2005-12-18T22:12:00.000+08:00

(edited!) cos i need to listen to e songs and sing with e lyrics!! hahaha...

these are e 2 songs tt i'll like to share with my friends..
it's nice.. it's punk music..?!
highly recommended..

by mika nakashimi
song of "nana" - a comic i've been readin this days..

lyrics :
Akehanashita mado ni mawaru ranbu no DEEP SKY
AH aoide...

“Kurikaesu hibi ni nan no imi ga aru no?”
AH sakende...
Tobidasu GO
Hakitsubushite ROCKING SHOES
Hane ageru PUDDLE
FURASSHUBAKKU
Kimi wa CLEVER
AH, REMEMBER

Ano niji wo watatte ano asa ni kaeri tai
Ano yume wo narabete futari aruita GLAMOROUS DAYS

“Akewatashita ai ni nan no kachi mo nai no?”
AH nageite...
Hakidasu GO
Nomihoshite ROCK’N’ROLL
Iki agaru BATTLE
FURASSHUBAKKU
Kimi no FLAVOR
AH REMEMBER

Ano hoshi wo atsumete kono mune ni kazaritai
Ano yume wo tsunaide futari odotta GLAMOROUS DAYS

Nemure nai yo!

SUNDAY MONDAY
Inazuma TUESDAY
WEDNESDAY THURSDAY
yukibana...
FRIDAY SATURDAY
Nanairo EVERYDAY
Yamikumo kieru FULL MOON
Kotaete boku no koe ni

Ano kumo wo haratte kimi no mirai terashitai
Ano yume wo kakaete hitori aruku yo GLORIOUS DAYS

Ano niji wo watatte ano asa ni kaeri tai
Ano yume wo narabete futari aruita GLAMOROUS DAYS

GLAMOROUS SKY...

Endless Story _Yuna Ito

If you haven't changed your mind
sobaniitehoshiiyo tonight

tsuyogarukotonitsukaretano
maboroshisugitano everytime i think about you baby
imanaraieru i miss you
It is hard to say i’m sorry

tatoeba darekanotamejanaku anatanotameni
utaitai konoutawo
owaranai story tsuzukukonokagayakini
Always tsutaetai zuttoeienni

Memories of our time together
kienaide konomama don’t go away

atatakakutokedashite tashikameruno
yasashisanoshizuku konomunenihirogatteku
setsunaihodoni i’m missin’you
kasanetate hanadanaide

tatoeba kanaunara mouichidoanatanotameni
utaitai konoutawo
owaranai story taemonaiaishisade
Tell me why oshieteyo zuttoeienni

tatoeba darekanotamejanaku anatanotameni
utaitai konoutawo
owaranai story tsuzukukonokagayakini
Always tsutaetai zuttoeienni

tatoeba kanaunara mouichidoanatanotameni
utaitai konoutawo
owaranai story taemonaiaishisade
Tell me why oshieteyo zuttoeienni

(english lyrics)

If you haven’t changed your mind
Then I want you by my side Tonight

I’m so tired of always having to bluff
Everytime I think about you baby, I feel so young
If I could just tell you I miss you
It is hard to say I’m sorry

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that goes on and on in this radiance
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

Memories of our time together
this way, they don’t go away

Once I knew that the warmth between us had disappeared,
gentle tears started to spread over my chest
This is not where it ends, I’m missing you
please don’t let go of my hand

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of endless love
tell me why please tell me forever and ever

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that goes on and on in this radiance
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of endless love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever
****
all soo touchin..
both songs are from nana e movie..
love it to bits..
hope e soundtrack n vcd of this movie comes out soon..

2005-12-18T21:29:00.000+08:00

i slacked away another day of my holiday..
watched a very nice show jus now...
legally blonde..cool show.. i love e determination she had to get herself into one of the prestigious university _ harvard law school..
jus bcos she's a blonde.. pple assumes her to a just another dumb blonde with big boobs..underestimating her..
so i admire the way she proves others wrong... n managed to get herself into harvard..
wow..
harvard is really a nice uni..so recognised n prestigious..
i love it too..
but.. i doubt there'll be any chance for me to get into it..
*mission impossible*
shakes head
ah...i love her determination!!
ok.. i've set my mind.. elle woods..
gonna learn from her! she may be jus a imaginary character from some hollywood movie.. but it's motivating !

2005-12-18T07:41:00.000+08:00

my friendster horoscope forcast today

"None of the drama is your fault. Don't take things personally -- focus on solutions."

scary man..all these things can be linked to tt thing..
first my dream forcast
second is this horoscope thingy..

how "xie men"

2005-12-18T06:27:00.000+08:00

i was about to sleep den i saw the tags.. so i've to start all this bloggin thingy again..

Huiting: perhaps y0u will say that i'm helping christel. but the truth i know is she didn't receive y0ur msg at all. dun blame her and said that she's unreasonable

my views on it :
o?if she jus tel me in a nice manner first or jus confirm or call me b4 u malign me n write things like "u jus fucking lie there do nothing" n tt's an insult n a malign i wouldnt have blame her n wrote things

Huiting: for me, i trust her. cuz this is what we called "close friendship" so. just telling y0u what i know. and y0ur blog, y0u said she hurt y0u in her blog. but. tink twice bef0re you said anything..

my views on it :

pls check out the dates n time of those posts..i've never written anything lik those in my blog b4 tt event..n wad makes me do those things..it's bcos of tt post..i got so damn pissed n hurt..n this is what i get for puttin in efforts in my own manner..n having friends who like tt say pple in their blogs.. pls think if - it was u who she was referrin to..
i've tried to coax myself to understand her situation.. but i couldnt really accept it..for it's a friend who have inflicted the hurt n this person is one tt u initially thot is a good one ,who did this..
sorry..u heard one side of the story.. it's better if u heard both..

Huiting: so all i wanna said is. it's n0t her fault ab0ut the whole things. dun blame her for that okay?

my views on it :

i dunno what to say except " xin hui yi leng"
if i blame oso no use.. nothin changes.. but i'll always remember it for i doubt i can forget it easily
things have gotton so worse..initially i thot tt probably this thing will knock some sense into pple..but look at this

<Christel>: Ive let the whole issue go why dont u do the same? Strangely, me n ht did make a guess if you can let the friendship go so easily.. my ans is.. why still hold on to such a person? If u cant let go of a rotten egg.. then you'll have to be a collector for

<Christel>: those rotten eggs and you'll be the one suffering in the end, I dont want to see that.. Cause i know i'll always be your friend.. so if youre sad.. i'll be too and then i'll need to encourage u back up again.. Give everyone a break baz.. and most of all.

<Christel>: give yourself a break

<Jas>: =) don worry. i know how to handle it..

i see that nothing changes.. after e event, i still see an insult even in tag boards..
i've alread stop all these nasty things in my blog..
n there she is.. still insultin..
i dont see that she has learn anythin from this fight thingy..
still continuin these insults.. will this improve e situation...?
n seems like i'm more towards havin an arguement with C____ instead of the other one..n of course.. i'm definitely more angry with C____ bcos she jus continuin tt.. n after all.. this whole thingy wasnt so BIG in e first place..
if others r waitin for an apology from me first.. tt's not what i'm goin to do..unless....._________________________

n i wont anyhow say "sorry" to others if i feel tt it's not my fault in the first place..
tt's my principle in life n i'm stickin with it..
if it's totally my fault..den an apology is what i'll give..
others..

Huiting: cuz i saw that y0u also say nasty things ab0ut her in y0ur blog. dun tell me i'm wr0ng. cuz i'm sure i'm right =)

u r right.. i did said nasty things..of course i'll do tt..after someone said nasty things abt me..
i dun go "shuan le" n "resign to fate" jus bcos someone said me..i will say back..n it's twice as nasty..
if no one actually said it till so crude.. will i say back?
no... if the tone of tt post is nt so hurtin n insultin..wil i do tt..? my answer will be a no..
if someone wrote them in a nicer manner.. without e insults n scoldin..i wouldnt get so pissed? i wouldnt have gotten so angry tt i wanna slap someone..

i'm probably wrong in sayin nasty things.. but i do not start it in e first place..
a small thing bcame something tt BIG..who would ever thot tt we would get into such a big fight..n it feels like some backstabbin thingy?
all e insults..
if u r the one who kana insulted first.. tel me how would u feel n what would u do?
i really have nothin much to say..

after all these things..
have pple/ anyone ever thot tt i'll lose all the trust n faith in my friends?
even ur friends can do tt to u.. let alone others, whol r nt ur friends..
this thingy have changed my _______ towards friends..n this society tt's all i can say..

if pple are thinkin.. it's only a fight..y change?
but think deeper.. a simple thing can totally change ur perspective of ur life.. n i'm sure this is one of the things..
tt makes me wonder..
who is truely ur friends?

n if someone out there is probably sneering after readin all this.., thinkin that "yea!"

this person is probably hopeless..

i do think we need to talk.. but now i'm havin second thots..
if we talk..
do u think that e talk would go on smoothly?
with my temper n C___'s temper n everyone's (3 of us or maybe more) temper..
pple whom have probably heard the other side of view would probably join in to think tt
"ok.. rotton eggs.."
for i think tt pple sidin u will probably have similar thots as u..no point anyway..

pple whom have probably heard my story..
will think differently
a friend of mine told me
" ur there gt alot of backstabbin hor"
this is what i got from "outsiders"..
i've heard diff pple havin some how similar views n other few view which i WILL not mention here... for u never know tt someone will use these words to counter attack me or blame e person who says this next time..
for those pple who i've received comments like "i side u dont worry"
i'm touched..i love these guys..n outsiders wil probably have a clearer view of this whol thingy..y dont jus let em decide?

y am i mentionin so much if nothin gets in..?
it's as though no point explainin tt much anymore..

n do u think tt C___ will ever say sorry to me? ?

i dont really think tt i'll get an apology from anyone anyway'..

"she hui leng gan"

this is the last post tt i'm goin to write abt this whole event..
clearin up e mess isnt easy..
someone has to do it..
but definitely it's not me..

*i wont bow my head or beg others for things.. this is my principle..*

2005-12-18T05:23:00.001+08:00

(edited 0742 am)

hmm...like what a friend of mine said..
time changes everything..i guess so too.. but in my opinion.. it's e surrounding and situation around us that changes us, as in our behaviours, thots, n everything..it's e pressure and the people u met along e way (of ur life) changes some of ur viewpoints..
we used to think that the world is a simple one.. (tt's when we are young) but as we grew up.. we met pple with lots of faces.. one moment.. this person is smiling to u so sweetly, the other moment..he/she may jus stab u behind without u even noticing it.. n by the time u notice it, it's probably too late..
this is a world we are in right now..n come to think of it.. we are only 19 years old.. but i've met countless of such people.. (maybe i'm jus plain unlucky or what..)
n there's something known as "numbness" to me..n this so called "numbless" is a self defence.. to protect urself from people..hmm.. in other words, it's like buildin a wall in between to protect urself..
i believe (my opinion... no comments k?) in this..
a chinese sayin that goes "shen bu you ji" this is e word that explains changes ba..maybe i'm wrong.. but dunno..
hmm.. diff pple have diff viewpoints abt this..
"she hui leng gan"
e society these days is soo.. it's made me believe that noone is naive/ _______ anymore..whatever u say n whatever u do.. pple will take tt to counter attack u/ jus backstab u some time later (in ur life)
from classmates, to colleagues to even friends..(one in particular) they can jus malign u for something that u've never done/said..guess everyone hates tt feelin..tt feelin is so damn _______(fill in e blanks urself)
i hate this..!
so in conclusion.. i think tt it's e things u've met with n the pressures u face in ur life that changes one's thinkings or probably actions..
o shit..let me tel u an example of my case..
y do i grow to love money alot..??
if u grow up in such an enviroment, frettin over money..
usin those things tt is grabbed from "dunno where" using textbooks that is not "u use ur money buy"
need to apply for financial aids/ bursuries everythin tt could get u money..
gettin urself so stressed up over money issues..n i find tt in my life..
studies have not give me so much pressure like money did..(somethin is wrong with my enlish here, i think)
havin so many wishes n spendin some of ur time envyin what others can have, without any effort.... while in my case, i have to work, n save up in order to get whatever i want..
my first hp n internet n computer is the best examples..i got it all of these at the age of 17 and 18..kind of slow..
hmm.. ok.. enough said..if nt i wanna cry again..(diao)
hmm.. a friend os mine once asked me..
given a choice, i want normal things or branded goods.. my answer is "can change to money ?"
money is not everything.. money oso cant buy u everythin..
but without money, life would be miserable..
i'm born in such a family.. i wish tt my children (in e future, if i get married?!) would live a carefree lifestyle..without e stress i went thru..
ha.. n most of my classmates are almost in e same situation with me.. (applyin for every single fianancial aids in sch) lol.. n sometimes..i feel sad bcos other may need it more but never get it..ah ah ah..nvm.. it depends on luck sometimes..den mr gomez always reminded us to study hard.. cos he himself came from a humble background when he was young too.. and now.. he'a a rich man.. lol.. he alwatys denies it.. but he everytime says e stocks he buys always earns money.. (ok, he's an econs teacher! he sure knoe the economy better than us..) of course sure earn lo.. n everytime durin econs lessons.. when our topic is related to money, he'll fish the pocket of his shirt and flash a $1000 note jus like that.. then he'll pass it ard.. (tt's showin off) ha.. and if we refuse to return him, he'll threaten us.. so damn hilarious la..lol ok..ha.. think of him wanna laugh lo..ok.. his really one good teacher n to tell e truth.. he's really a motivatin teacher..lol..he's one successful example of someone who worked hard to break out of tt vicious cycle..
y do i say that it's a vicious cycle?
ok.. if a child from a humble family do not work hard n never get a high payin job.. tt child (adult) will never have the chance to improve his life , cos his parent's money is not goin to let him have a better life, seeing the current situation.. n news once reported say "we must try to help ____ familes gets out of tt vicious cycle.." someone said tt... if u follow up e news..i cant say who here..
ok..n if a child who works hard, get himself a better job (at least a white collar, not a blue one) with a good pay which is >$1700
his life would improve..! n prices of good are gettin higher n higher (wu jia) the cost of living in spore is gettin higher n higher.. probably one day (after we graduate , probably 25/26) this cost would be much higher..
"wei yu chou mou" isnt al about savin.. it's also abt preparin ourselves for the new society after a few years.. we never know what will change..
ten years ago singapore wasnt as developed as it is now..m ten years later.. i wonder how spore would be like..
hmm..
ah.. enough of this analysin..back to e point..
and sometimes, he jus goes ard tellin us how much effort he put in last time in order to get to the current position n salary..ha... n tel e truth, think most of us are really motivated..
ha.. i got motivated...but actually b4 he told me this story... i already motivated.. i finally "kai qiao" last year le lo.. b4 i decide come jjc..
lol..but he's a nice teacher anyway...
let's get back to the aim of this entry..
maybe we are not used to big changes..like i am.. so when somone whom we used to know changes.. we feel weird..tt's probably how u feel..
ah.. i'm tired now.. will continue this long story after i wake up..!

ok..i can continue this thingy now.. after writing the 2 posts above..
see.. a small situation like tt can change someone!

2005-12-18T05:09:00.000+08:00

my sleepin routine is goin bonkers!
ha.. all bcos of this holiday!
lol..
ok... i spent time organisin all my files n documents... n cleared all the junk away from my comp..cos too many files.. e comp mag lag.. but no matter how i delete stil gt quite alot of files...=P
maybe i should go and have a sleep soon.. i slept from eight plus till one in the middle of the night!
tt's so weird!
stil never do anything abt my maths..
die..
but i dun feel like doin j1 work..
haiz...
forget it..
hmm.. christamas comin soon.. yea! look forward seh..!
wahaha.. think it's time i go and grab some sleep..
i plan to go for at leasr one facial b4 school starts!
tt's oso of one my aims!
i say it.. i'll make sure i do it! yea!

2005-12-18T00:48:00.000+08:00

i saw this horoscope link from wenhui's blog..
checked out my horoscope..

Capricorn, symbolized by the Goat, is a Cardinal Earth sign. Like the goat, Capricorns want to climb to the top of the mountain.

Ruled by Saturn, they are ambitious, determined, persistent and willing to do the hard work necessary to achieve their goals.

Career is important. (maybe..next time when i go out n work)

Underlying their determination to succeed is a desire for recognition, status, and prestige. (for now.. yes..it's my AIM!)

Capricorns are responsible, conscientious, efficient, organized.

They can be domineering, bossy and unforgiving of those who are not as diligent as they are.

Consistent with their Earth energy, they are practical, sensible, down-to-earth, dependable and conservative.

Capricorn is also cautious and somewhat inhibited

Positive Characteristics:

Ambitious (hmm...)

Responsible (depends..if i wan den i'll be..if not.. no)

Determined (maybe more to the stubborn side?!)

Hard workers (eh.. dunno le)

Scrupulous (dunno?)

Conscientious (dunno?!)

Efficient (?!! sometimes..)

Organized (no.. i like mess)

Practical (yes!)

Dependable (eh..dunno le)

Conservative (yes abit la)

Cautious (hmm... no no no)

~~Businesslike~~

Perfectionist (shoppin for things...yes..accurate)

Serious (hmm???)

Negative Characteristics:

Status-conscious (abit)

Domineering (yes.. to my sis only..haha)

Inhibited (To suppress or restrain (behavior, an impulse, or a desire) consciously or unconsciously..maybe..to certain things in particular)

Egotistic (hmm.. yea.. i think i am abit ne..)

Unforgiving (yes..probably..to some things)

Fatalistic (hmm??)

Stubborn (i am.. i stick with my believes n my heart)

(Brooding)
3 meanings to this..
1.To be deep in thought; meditate.
2.To focus the attention on a subject persistently and moodily; worry: brooded over the insult for several days.
3.To be depressed.

conclusion : yes i am...
*****
this is the first time that this horoscope thingy is accurate!

2005-12-17T18:47:00.000+08:00

some pple like to "jump" friends..even makin promises..
sometimes i just ask myself..
are u really makin true friends after hoppin here n there or are u landin in this particular spot here after all e jumpin?
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well..2 more weeks to slack b4 gettin into my busy n hectic lifestyle again..ah..ah..ah.. christmas is comin too..=)
santa claus is comin to town...
santa! pls grant my wishes!!!

2005-12-17T13:30:00.000+08:00

i had this very very weird dream yest night.. it's soo soo scary that i'm having shivers runnin down my spine when i thot of it..
i dont remember e dream that clearly now..
but all i remember was someone was dead after vomitting.. n this lady had vomitted on me and my friends.. in my dreams, i was abit tramatised..
n i woke up in sweat at exactly 4 am!!
hmm.. i have this feelin that this dream is sort of tellin me something..
gonna check it out later on e net
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(edited)
ok.. i found e meanin.. but dunno whether that can be trusted or not..

"End of a cycle. Something is finally over."

"This dream may also be a way for you to resolve your feelings with those who have passed on."

"dreams about death signify much needed change in our lives. Such dreams typically herald symbolic rather than literal death. In this way, death dreams let us know that some part of the self needs to be radically reworked, whether it be one's attitudes, emotions, or relationships."

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o man.. this is scary..maybe it's true.. but all 3 versions differs from each other cos i ripped them from different websites..
but it's all about change and doin somethin to solve it.. is it tellin me to do something? maybe it is..
someone isnt doin anythin abt it..
guess we need to talk
u know who u are..
n pls.. there's only one person

2005-12-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

yea! i have glamorous sky n endless story in my mp3~!
ha.. now i'm happy.. i can forget abt buyin the nana soundtrack after i've gt e songs..i'm now lookin for nana bit torrent..
ha.. hope i can watch it soon.. =)
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ah.. gonna buy more clothes.. chinese new year is comin..! ha.. still gt time..lol.. probably goin to have a trip to somewhere to look for new clothes.. n i have decide le..lol..
ok..after today, e back of my legs..feels weird..it's like e skin feels.. eh.. dunno how to explain..
i dunno if i wanna stay home or go lookin for pressies n clothes le..
hmm.. should i or should i not?
but it's ard christmas time..n there are alot of pple everywhere..
n sales too..ha.. i love sales.. but.. i hate e crowds..for e.g, today..(friday) orchard is already damn crowded..
maybe on a weekday , human traffic may be much better?
off to watch my tv..
update tml on my decision...

2005-12-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

i've changed my friendster url!! ha.. lol.. not bad.. i kind of love it..
lol.. take a look..
http://www.friendster.com/profiles/stephanie7

2005-12-16T20:12:00.000+08:00

a tiring day today..
i stayed up all night yesterday to finish up readin "nana" comics..
den i wake up at 10 plus.. den went to prepare to meet dionne n yiyan..
after handin in hw.. we jus went to je to eat our lunch.. n my initial plan was to check up with CPF board regardin a letter i've received yest nigh.. i made a mistake! i thot tt tt letter is askin me to pay for my poly fees..but instead.. it's repayin me back money! haha.. blur.. dunno wads wrong with me these days.. so blur..!
ha.. den we proceed to orchard for shoppin! had fun shoppin.. but my converse shoes is causin blisters on my legs! argh.. end up buyin plaster.. n puttin it all over my leg..lol..pain ah..n it's already not a new shoe! tt's e point..dunno wads wrong.. probably time to change a new one!

ha.. n i'm happy today cos i bought "itazura na kiss" comics... 5 comics in total!!heh.. now i've finally completed buyin book 1 - book 13 and a book 23... weird hor..haha..lol..actually wanted to buy more.. but too bad.. e other books are NT 75..old version.. i only want to collect NT 80 or 85...ha.. damn niao.. lol
feelin so happy.. cos i bought my fav stuffs..heh.. tt means tt i only have to but book 14 - 22.. heh..9 more books to go.. gonna save up ard $ 54 bucks to complete this whole set..lol
*grins*
i had fun today.. even though it's abit tirin.. cos i slept late yest..
ha..
i think tt after tt event.. i'm spendin more money than b4..ok.. retail therapy..but dun care.. as long as i feel good.. i dun mind anyway..plus sch's startin real soon.. will not go out too often le..hmm.. i was thinkin of buyin uo e rest of "itazura na kiss" comics..by this december.. lets hope tt book 14 - 22 will be NT 85 books.. den only.. i'll buy..heh..i love it!!

this holiday's wishlist..

- hope "it started with a kiss" (taiwan) will be out soon.. i really love it..dun really wanna spend time when sch reopens to dl from website...

- hope tt "nana" (jap) soundtrack n movie will be out soon.. i really love it..! haha..

lol.. santa.. pls grant my wishes.. this is all i want..

2005-12-15T17:10:00.000+08:00

these are e 2 songs tt i'll like to share with my friends..
it's nice.. it's punk music..?!
highly recommended..

by mika nakashimi
song of "nana" - a comic i've been readin this days..

Endless Story _Yuna Ito

If you haven't changed your mind
sobaniitehoshiiyo tonight

tsuyogarukotonitsukaretano
maboroshisugitano everytime i think about you baby
imanaraieru i miss you
It is hard to say i’m sorry

tatoeba darekanotamejanaku anatanotameni
utaitai konoutawo
owaranai story tsuzukukonokagayakini
Always tsutaetai zuttoeienni

Memories of our time together
kienaide konomama don’t go away

atatakakutokedashite tashikameruno
yasashisanoshizuku konomunenihirogatteku
setsunaihodoni i’m missin’you
kasanetate hanadanaide

tatoeba kanaunara mouichidoanatanotameni
utaitai konoutawo
owaranai story taemonaiaishisade
Tell me why oshieteyo zuttoeienni

tatoeba darekanotamejanaku anatanotameni
utaitai konoutawo
owaranai story tsuzukukonokagayakini
Always tsutaetai zuttoeienni

tatoeba kanaunara mouichidoanatanotameni
utaitai konoutawo
owaranai story taemonaiaishisade
Tell me why oshieteyo zuttoeienni

(english lyrics)

If you haven’t changed your mind
Then I want you by my side Tonight

I’m so tired of always having to bluff
Everytime I think about you baby, I feel so young
If I could just tell you I miss you
It is hard to say I’m sorry

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that goes on and on in this radiance
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

Memories of our time together
this way, they don’t go away

Once I knew that the warmth between us had disappeared,
gentle tears started to spread over my chest
This is not where it ends, I’m missing you
please don’t let go of my hand

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of endless love
tell me why please tell me forever and ever

You see, I want to sing this song, not for just anyone
but just for you
An ENDLESS STORY that goes on and on in this radiance
Always, I wanna show you, forever and ever

You see, I wish I could sing this song, just for you
just one more time
An ENDLESS STORY of endless love
tell me why, please tell me, forever and ever
****
all soo touchin..
both songs are from nana e movie..
love it to bits..
hope e soundtrack n vcd of this movie comes out soon..

2005-12-14T21:42:00.000+08:00

gonna do my chinese hw now..

2005-12-14T01:55:00.000+08:00

i'm startin to miss school...n everything tt's related to school..
i'm startin to get bored, restless..
even though sch's all abt studyin n all..but i kind of miss all e laughters n fun i have in school.. i'm startin to miss those duties n responsibilites n all.. i want to get involved in sch activities..n go for lessons.. i wanna learn new topics.. n bury myself under big piles of books, notes..
i know tt maybe wad i'm sayin here is abit weord n one day i'll probably regret this n this very day would be e day i find myself soo busy again..
ha.. i like e feelin of bein busy.. gettin myself into programs tt would somesort of make me seems occupied..unlike now.. all i do is surfin e net, watchin tv n all..
forget abt the part on revision.. i dun wan to giv a damn right now..
think i'll be doin tt for e rest of next year..
i look forward to the day when sch reopens..
den i can go to school n do the usual stuffs that i do..
wake up as early as five plus.. slack on my bed til it's 6.. wash up n get ready, setting off at 6.45 and reachin school at 715 sharp..
e first thing i do is to get to the table where my friends is sittin.. be it first 3 mths friens or my friens in my class..den we engaged ourselves into chit chattin n complainin abt lessons tt'll be borin on tt day..
so when e bell rings.. we'll all set off to the carpark for a flag raisin session.. n there, i'll carry out my duty as a class rep, takin attendance n reporting abt the attendance to gomez.. den proceed for our lessons..
after that, it'll lessons after lessons.. n there'll be breaks in between.. n durin e break, e six of us would sit down at the round table (it's always a blue table) to eat n talk talk talk..n i think we've tried to do revision durin breaks but it always ended up bein some chit chat session..
i miss e geog tutorials, where i get to see my fav ah go go.. who's forever as blur.. n always actin cute..makin us laugh.. haha.. den it'll be gomez's econ tutorial..n he'll be crackin some funny jokes to make lessons interestin..ha.. chinese lessons has always been a breeze.. n maths lessons was abit borin.. n i admit tt i dun pay attention durin maths lessons as it's always e last lesson.. n everybody's concentration level is very low..ha..
ah.. n one more thing.. i hated the canteen food.. forever e same.. guess next year would stil be e same.. i miss e cafe e most.. n i miss my aircorn classroom.. i really love air cons.. but too bad.. i dun have one in my room..
ah... how i wish i can get myself full of programmes n keep my mind away from disgusting things for now..
ah.. but next year we'll be seniors..hope tt those comin in jjc for 1st 3 month would be angels.. not devils...
sch sch sch.. jjc jjc jjc..classrep classrep classrep.. friends friends friends econs econs econs geog geog geog chinese chinese chinese maths maths maths gp gp gp
guess i'm too bored n for now.. i too slack to think abt revision..
n o ya.. i'm startin to worry abt my chi ao results.. dun think i'll get A this time round..it's even harder than chinese A la..n my pw.. will i get an A or B or a C? after puttin in so much effort into it..
haiz..
i want a busy life.. like i was b4 e promo period.. (between aug sept oct)